beautiful inside || carl Gallagher

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after 1 month
carl was still ignoring me but not like before I mean a little bit change
, I became closer to the Gallaghers I was coming over to their house 5 times a week, I was still talking with Lucas but not that much he had a girlfriend and she was jealous so he was talking with me coldly you know not like before and it hurts me so much , anyways we were walking around the house with Oliver talking about things , people and shit
"I see you and Lucas aren't that close anymore " Oliver said " yeah because his dumb ass girlfriend is jealous of me " I said rolling my eyes " ohh sorry but I will never ignore you for my girl " he said smirking " stupid bitch you're my cousin she can't be jealous " I said giggling " yeah but still " he said looking at me " I'm sorry Lili you don't deserve that shit " he continued " I really don't , you know he was my everything and now he's ignoring me for his girl " I said looking down
" that's okay , i mean not okay but I'm here for you " he said hugging me I smiled at him
" I found out something " he said chuckling
" you like Carl , don't you? " he continued raising his eyebrows " what i- " i interrupted by Oliver " no you do " he said smirking
" no ! I mean he's kinda cute but hell no he's a player " I said looking at Oliver
" trust me he likes you " he said ignoring my words . I just rolled my eyes and ignored him 
I pulled out a cigarette and put it between my lips  " you do that shit thousand times a day " he said worried " it's okay " I simply said
after 10 minutes we decided to go home because it was getting dark
While we were walking home we saw Carl he was sitting on the backyard smoking he looked at me , trust me I tried my best to not make eye contact with him , Oliver punched my shoulder softly smirking "hey Blake's " Carl said smirking "hey what's up " Oliver responded I didn't say anything . he was still staring at us till we reached the house
we went inside the house and closed the door I went upstairs and entered my room to change my clothes I saw Carl staring at my window we made eye contact again but no! so I just closed the window . I walked downstairs and entered the living room sitting next to Oliver
" how was school today " my uncle asked sitting on the couch watching news
" good like always " Oliver responded
" dinners ready " Karina shouted
we all walked into the kitchen
" oh my gosh my fav food " Oliver said kinda yelled we all laughed at his reaction
Me and Oliver walked upstairs to have some fun after we had dinner " wanna watch a movie or something" Oliver said " yes but don't ask me which one just pick one okay " I said laughing
" you're so annoying " Oliver said
" am I ? " I said smirking and grabbing his hair " you hoe " i continued laughing ,he giggled
we watched the movie
after the movie ended it was already 12am and we spend 20 minutes talking with each other about stuff  I yawned Oliver noticed that I was tired and he decided to leave " good night we have school tomorrow" Oliver said leaving the room "you don't have to remind me that every 3 seconds " I groaned  " yes I do " he smirked and then closed the door behind him after 2 seconds I passed out

I woke up around 7am I took a quick shower and brushed my teeth , straightened my hair then did my makeup and I decided to wear a black skinny jeans , my pink crop top which was so cute and my black converses and finally my favorite 2 rings that I wear everyday , I was walking downstairs when I noticed Oliver wasn't up I knocked on the door " come in " he said annoyed " you're still in bed hoe ?" I said raising my eyebrows " go away " he simply said " e- excuse me?" I said confused " I'm sick I can't go to school " he said facing the pillow
" oh Oliver are you okay ? " my smile changed to a worry face " yeah just tell mom " he said looking up i nodded
.. I closed his door behind me I went downstairs karina was awake she was making breakfast "good morning karina " I said smiling " good morning honey oh where's Oliver - " she said " Oliver co- " i interrupted her " he said he can't go to school I think he's sick " I said " ohh I'm going to check on him " she said going upstairs " karina I can't eat breakfast so I'm leaving okay "
" okay honey "
" please call me if he was bad or something " I said worried " I can take care of him don't worry " she said smiling
I opened the front door what I saw Carl standing right there " oh Jesus you scared me " I said confusingly " sorry I just wanted to tell you that um you can walk with me to school if you want?" Carl said smirking " okay , Oliver can't go to school anyway so I don't want to walk alone " i said smiling " he's sick ? " he asked " yes " I simply said
we started to walk to school he wrapped his arm around my shoulder I didn't say anything we were walking like that
it was awkward silent I decided to break it
" carl why you were ignoring me this whole time? " I asked him " uhh I- uh I don't know maybe I was just being a dick I don't know " he said smiling. What's up in his head and why he's nice to me?  I thought to myself smiling
I pulled out a cigarette and placed it between my lips "the new girl smokes too" he said smirking " yeah that's apart of my life " I said giggling
After 10 minutes his arm was still wrapped around my shoulder I felt comfortable I don't know why
We walked in the school
I had science class with ... Carl
we entered the class and he sat next to me
He was staring at me the whole time I was just looking down
did he changed?
why he's acting like this?
What if he likes me ? oh gosh no way did I thought about that no no no!

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I don't know what to put in here shit the only thing I think about is my big test that I have tomorrow

I should be studying math rn 😭😭😭
my math isn't mathing bro it's so hard 😭😭
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