It wasn't very long ago that he approached me. It was our first real conversation since the Incident. And until then, I actually believed I was okay. You know? I wasn't nervous all the time anymore, I could actually speak without a stutter, life was good.
Then he approached me, and all of that fear came flooding back.
He said, and I quote, "Look I've been feeling really guilty about what happened, and I'm not sure why because I don't really think it was either of our faults. Do you think maybe we could start over with a clean slate?"
And it was the way he said it, more than the words he used, that scared me. Because I knew, from the tone of his voice, that he wanted me to forget what happened and just continue spending time with him as if nothing changed.
I said yes. What else could I say? If I said no, he'd probably kill himself.
I went back to stuttering.
I went back to avoiding eye contact during the rare occasions I'd speak to people.
I went back to flinching at the slightest thing.
I went back to how I was after him.
And now I'm stuck.
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Emotional abuse is still abuse
RandomThis is for everyone who's ever been emotionally abused. You're not alone. Feel free to send me your stories. They will be added to this book with your consent. TW: ABUSE AND BAD THINGS LIKE SELF HARM Amazing cover by @lilgalaxyclikkie
