Capricious

" I AM NOT A GOOD PERSON"

I am free whenever you need my help

Letting my shoulder warm the loneliest

Never hesitate to offer my pocket

One call away when you're dealing with academic works 

You can count on me when you're ran out of friends 

I never say no when you ask me to out for you to unwind

I am a cheerleader when you're at the lowest

I am at risk, but you needed me the most, I'll be there

When you're in trouble, I am doing my best to lift you

I always forgive people who talk behind my back

 I always understand people who abuse my kindness

I always care for people who disheartened me with their behavior

I always love the people who keep on bringing me down

I always value the people who never support me

 I always respect the people who never speak out for me in my absence

I used to give myself to everyone

I used to be available to everyone

Knowing that I've been invalidated and dismissed

I thought life should be like that

Emptying yourself for the others

Being good to all people no matter what

I wake up realizing that I am not a good person

I am hurting myself for being so selfless

I am being so hard and harsh to myself

I let them treat me in that way I am always thinking about the others

Not knowing that I need a break

I need to take care of myself

I need to think of myself I need myself for myself

(Healing process)