AGAIN

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Ah, there he goes again, literally fucking another slut in the same room he shares with his wife.

I don't want to stay in the guess room to hear them...maybe I'll just spend another night in my brother's place, but they'll just gonna keep on nagging me.

Fucking couch it is.

Fuck, just where did we go wrong? Haru and I, I mean. We were happy, he loved me dearly just like how I love him.

Was I lacking? Hah, of course not, I never lack, after all, the Haitani blood runs through my veins, so it's just him.

But why am I still with him despite the fact that he kept on cheating on me over and over again? We don't have a child despite being married for almost five years so divorcing him would be an easy process, so why am I still with him?

Probably because I love him and still hope he'd come back to the Haruchiyo I first know and the Haruchiyo I loved and marry. But it's already been almost three years since he started cheating on me.

Coming home late and drunk, with hickies and sometimes even with a slut for him to fuck on our shared bed like he's doing right now.

My brothers isn't happy with the decision I made to stay with him but they couldn't do anything about it since it was my decision

Of course the first time he cheated on me and my brothers heard about, Haru came home with bruises and scratches and I'm guessing it had something to do with my brothers. And that night, he begged me for forgiveness, crying and promising that he'll never do it again, and of course I forgave him.

But oh, just a few weeks later, he did it again. And i forgave him again even though he didn't ask for an apology because my brother wasn't envolved.

I kept coming back to him over and over again no matter how much he hurt me because... Love I guess

If you were to tell my fifteen years old self that I'd be in this situation, she would probably laugh and snap your neck for saying such a ridiculous thing because I was always told to choose a man who's worth it.

And I met him, I met Haruchiyo, he was a quiet and stoic man back then. The first time we met was when he was picking up my brothers, and after that, I don't how, he started talking then dating. We got along for reasons I don't know, maybe because we were the same age surrounded by war freaks? Because as far as I remember, we don't share any similar experiences especially within the family.

He was the scapegoat while I was the golden child. He was an average student while I was over achieving. He was exposed to the cruelty of the world by an early age, i was protected and shelter by my brothers.

We were so happy back then, and Haru was the type of man that wouldn't leave me alone until we worked things out and fix the misunderstanding. But it all change on our third wedding anniversary, that's when he started to change the way he treated me.

I remember i was so hurt and cried every night, and now I'm just waiting patiently for him to come back to me and pretend that he didn't just cheat with a slut right in front of me.

I don't want to sleep in this couch... I don't want to come over to my brothers and hear them scold me.

I guess I only have one choice left.

"Hajime?"

"Y/n? He did it again, didn't he?"

"yeah... Can I... Y'know... Am I disturbing you?" i asked, biting my lip. Just how many times have i called him? If you were to see my call history, you would see how I called Hajime more often than Haru.

Don't get me wrong, we don't have that kind of relationship, we're only friends, friends that can always call the other for help and wouldn't hesitate to do so. But now, I'm kind of embarrassed, I've called him so many times to let me stay in his place for the night, And Hajime always agrees with no hesitation. He's so nice to me that even my brothers joked how I could've just choose him instead of Haruchiyo. But I can't do that, I only love Haru.

"no-no, of course not. Just wait there, I'll be there in fifteen minutes." I heard shuffling on the other side of the line and that somehow made me smile, Hajime is really quick on his feet.

Maybe if things were different, I would have marry him instead of Haruchiyo.

I grabbed my purse and wait out of the gate for him, I don't want to stay inside any more longer with them and their moans. As I was waiting, I pulled out a stick of cigarette and light it, taking a hit and feeling my head fuz made me feel calmer. Oh What would I do without my precious nicotine?

As I was about to finish and take my last hit, a car pulled out in front of me and the black tainted window rolled down revealing Hajime. "did you wait long?" he asked.

I shake my head no and dropped the butt of my cigarette on the floor, stomping on it to put out the fire. "no, not at all. You came quicker than you said, actually." you laugh and sat on the passanger seat next to him. "I didn't want you to stay in this place longer." Hajime started driving back to his place

"thank you, I swear I'll pay you back one day. Promise. " you said and leaned your head to the window while still looking at Hajime. "c'mon, it's not a big deal. What are friends for?" he laughed, his eyes is still on the road

"but you could be finishing your works and i don't know, fucking someone. But here you are." Hajime laughed and turned his eyes to md for a moment before paying attention to the road once again "and you could just break up with him and be with someone who would never treat you like shit."

"I know. But, he'll come back to me soon. I know it." I sound so pathetic don't I, Hajime? "I see, but just so you know, whatever decision you make, I'm just right here for you anytime you need me." I nodded and smiled at him. We suddenly made eye contact and he adverted his eyes away from me with a red face. "of course, there's also your brothers and even Takeomi, Kakucho seems to care about you as well." he sounded fluster, I gave him a hum and looked outside my window.

I'm sorry Hajime, taking your feelings for granted. But I promise, in my next life, maybe I'll choose you if you choose me as well. "want some drinks when we got home?"

"yes please."

"extra strong?"

I nodded

"by the way, don't tell my brothers about this."

"i know."

"thank you Hajime."