Sweet Sorrow

4. Euphoria of my Agony

Can't you understand?
Can't you see?
Can't you feel?
Our endless conversations,
Our compatibility, our music taste,
Our care for one another,
Our love language,
Why can't you understand?
Oh girl,
Why can't you see what I am seeing?
Why can't you feel what I am feeling?
Are you really that dumb or,
Pretending to be the one?

You put me in this dilemma,
You put me where i can't do anything,
You put me where i can share everything but not 'this' thing.
You put me where i can't back out.
You put me where i will cheer you up for what you like.
You put me in the pain where no pain resides.
Yes, you make me weak,
Weak for you, for us.
Oh girl,
It's not your fault.
It's always been me since the beginning,
But, i will be the end of 'this' thing but not everything.

I just hope it doesn't get too late,
Until you see through me and
See what i see, feel what I feel now,
And by the time, you understand the whole conspiracy,
I will be gone to another embrace
'cause I love you that much
That me loving around and for another soul, I won't be able to forget your touch.
You have already been engraved to the part of my life.
That I can't see your regrets and cries.
Oh girl,
Why you seeking such questions to me?
Why can't you try to find the answers on your own?
I want to tell you everything but i can't.
I'm afraid of losing you because
Losing you will be losing the engraved beauty marked by you in me.

Yes, it's my pain,
And I want it to be forever mine.
Your happiness seems to be mine,
Even your sufferings are mine.
But the pain that I am feeling,
I hope, would never be yours.
I fear by the time, you realise everything,
The situation might not be in my hands.
And i will be incapable of doing anything.
Oh girl,
I want you to see what I see.
I want you to feel what i feel,
either today or never,
That's the best,
And that will be the undying beauty of our bond.
                        --- Sanvi Saumya