Tara's Story

Chapter 19

“No.” I said flatly.

“Not even-”

“No.”

“But-”

“No. Aren’t you like, 16 anyway? I’m way out of your league, trust me. Doesn’t matter anyway, I have a boyfriend already. Even though I accepted your apology, doesn’t mean I forgive you. I would suggest looking for some other fish in the sea.”

“Yeah, ok. Thanks again.” He said, walking to the door.

“Brandon!” I called after him.

“What?” he asked turning around and smiling.

“Stay away from the friends of yours. I think they eat too much chicken for their own good.” I grinned.

He laughed and said “Yeah, I will.” Then he walked out.

I just smiled to myself, and got back to work. “That was interesting.” Commented Penny.

“No kidding. A little unexpected too. But, life throws random stuff at us. We just take it in stride.” I said looking at her.

She thought about it for a moment and laughed. “I guess so. Do you even have a boyfriend?”

“No. Well, kind of. Not quite. I’ll tell you later.”

“Ok then.” She said, suspicious.

“Let’s get back to work.” I said, getting off topic. We did, until the end of our shift, around 6pm.

After I hung up my apron, I walked outside and shivered. December is definitely on its way. I wouldn’t be surprised if it snowed any of these days. Then, it hit me. I don’t have a car to take Penny to my house. I mean, I just ran to work all the time. “So where are we headed?” she asked, coming up from behind.

“Uh...”

“Well, I’m driving, so you better give me some. I don’t let strangers drive my car.” She said, walking to over a tan car. I breathed a sigh of relief. Since she had her own car, I wouldn’t have to explain my lack of one. I jumped into the passenger seat as Penny started it up.

“Ok, we’ll take a right out of here.” I said, starting up the long list of directions. Once we got there, I had her park in the garage. We walked inside and I asked “What do you want to eat?”

“Oh, um it doesn’t matter.” She said, looking around. “This place is huge!” she exclaimed.

I just laughed to myself in the kitchen, as I got out a pan. “Yeah, that’s what everyone says.”

Once I finished, I brought it to the table, and called out to Penny, who was standing in the living room. I served our share, and put the leftovers in the fridge before sitting down to eat myself. Penny had already taken a few bites. “This is really good.” She said

“Oh, thanks. It’s my Mom’s recipe. Cordon Bleu casserole.”

“Really? Does she live around here too?”

“No, she’s in Montana.”

“Oh.” She said, taking another bite. Once she swallowed, she asked “So tell me about this guy who’s not your boyfriend, but kind of is.”

Dang, I hoped she’d forget about that. Oh well, might as well tell her. She’s bound to find out one way or another. “Well, his name is Conner. I didn’t exactly live him, but we were at the same house a lot. I used to think I loved him, and that he loved me, but he never said anything and then I moved here. So I never found out. He’s back in Montana now. Along with the rest of my past.” I said, thinking back to that place I used to call home, while staring off into the distance.

“I see. Well, you seem to be fine without him.” She said, taking another bite.

“Yeah, that’s what everyone says.” I said sadly. It truly did seem like everyone thought I seemed fine without Conner. But, I wasn’t so sure. My heart kept screaming for him to come, arguing with my head, which was just following other people’s thoughts on me and him.  I felt though as if I was still living a half-life, even with all this love and comfort around me. I needed him.

I needed Conner.

With this new realization, I stood up and ran over to my phone on the counter. “Tara!” yelled Penny from the table. “What are you doing?”

“I’m calling him.” I said, dialing the pack house’s phone.

“Hello?” asked a low voice. Sounded like Randy to me.

“Um, hi. I’m looking for Conner. Is he there?” I asked, praying he wouldn’t recognize my voice.

“No. He’s not with us.” The voice said, sadly. Just the way he said it sent chills up back. Not with us? Does that mean he’s dead? Oh god, I hope not. Wouldn’t I have been able to tell if he died? I was so confused right now. There’s just been so much going on recently, maybe I wouldn’t have felt anything. Do even feel anything if your mate dies? I don’t know; I don’t know anything anymore.

“Hello? Hello?” the voice asked as I dropped the phone.

“Tara!” yelled Penny from the entranceway. I blinked and shook my head, coming out of my seep thinking trance. I put the phone back in its holder and turned to her.

“Everything’s fine Penny. He just wasn’t home.” I said, while giving a fake smile. “Let’s finish dinner.”

She looked at me skeptically while going back to the table. Not much else happened; I cleaned up after dinner while Penny watched TV. Then we both went to bed, with her in a guest bedroom.

I curled up in my lonely bed, hugging a pillow, whimpering. I missed Conner, I missed him so much. He better be alive. Without him, I didn’t know what to do.

Tara! Get a hold of yourself! You’re doing fine without him. You’re going to adopt soon! You can’t be an emotional wreck like this. Just get over him already!

Even with my brain saying this, I still shed a tear for Conner before going to sleep.

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