𝟠𝕥𝕙 𝕞𝕖𝕞𝕓𝕖𝕣 𝕠𝕗 𝔹𝕋𝕊

triggers

He fetched through his duffle bag and picked up the phone, smiling as your name appeared on the screen

'Hey love, I'm just hom-'

'J-jin I-I don't feel good-', your voice kept cracking and you felt pathetic

'Y/n? What wrong?! Hey?', jin's breath staggered as he fished frantically around for the house keys in his bag

'C-could you please come b-back home?'

'I'm here, I'm right outside y/n-- ', his voice cut off

Jin stared at his phone, cursing at it as it switched off due to no battery

You heard the distant slamming of the main door

You got up and ran out of the room

Running into jin's arms, as his body collided with yours from both of you running towards eachother

He held you tight, caressing your hair and muttering soft words

'Its fine love, let it out. I'm here for you'

'I'm sorry, I-Im so sor-rry. I-I couldn't hold b-back'

He involuntarily untangled one of your hands from around his neck and looked at your wrist

Some of the old scars were bleeding fresh with nail marks all over your forearm 

His heart clenched and he held you tighter

'Its alright. Don't worry about it. I'm so glad you told someone when you..you felt like this', his voice cracked with his dry throat

You broke the hug and looked down, not wanting to meet his eyes. Ashamed of yourself.

'Love, look up at me', he whispered softly, intertwining your hands with his

You refused

He bent down at your level. Cupping your cheeks and wiping off the tears

'I'm here ok? I got you', he muttered softly, looking deep in your eyes

His eyes were glistening with tears too

He knew it hurt you when you cried

You never were the type to cry over petty things

Physically, you had a strong resistance

Mentally, it kept getting weaker

He gently picked you up by your waist and you wrapped your legs and arms around him

He walked you to the kitchen and sat you down on the counter

You wiped your cheeks with your hands, slightly staining them with blood

You felt so pathetic

Jin silently rummaged through a drawer and pulled out a first aid box

Placing it on the counter, he beckoned you to come towards him as he turned on the faucet

You slid of the counter and took small steps towards him

Once in his range, he pulled you close to him and you softly hit his built chest

He gently washed out your cuts, holding your wrist and letting the water flow over them

A tear escaped his eyes but he was quick to wipe it with his shoulder

He silently turned you around and held you, unwrapping the bandages and wrapping them around your wrists

His silence was killing you

Why wasn't he speaking?

Is he mad?

He must be

Yell at me, scream at me just please talk to me

'I- I'm sor-'

'Y/n', he spoke firmly

'How many times should I tell you? It's not your fault. Stop apologizing'

'But y-you were silent so I thought you were m-mad', you hiccuped, playing with your fingers

His eyes softened

'I would never be mad at you. Slightly upset, ya. But I'll be angry at you. Never.', he whispered, holding your shoulders

'Its alright Y/n. We all know that your recovery time might be long. And we are all willing to help you through it.'

'You're so strong and I'm so glad you asked me to help you. We both know..' his hands slid up and held your jaw steady

'...the old you would never ask for help', his lips quivered ever so slightly

'I'm so proud of the progress you make everyday. We all are. I know how hard it is to fight your own self everyday. It must be so tiring and yet you keep fighting', he whispered delicately and your heart seemed to be in your mouth

'I know you must have held back so much to not harm yourself. I know you're trying'

'Don't worry about it ok? We'll take small steps.'

'Just keep trying. That's it'

Silence filled the air but it wasn't awkward. It was comfortable

Their patience was unbelievable. You knew that if you were in their place you would have eventually gotten restless

'Yes i will', you spoke

He hugged you tightly, clutching your shirt in his fists

You hugged him back with the same energy. Hiding your face in his chest

'We are all here for you alright? Don't rush yourself. Small steps ok love?', he rubbed your back and you looked up at his face

He smiled at you and you felt a surge of fire down your spine

Your lips met his. He tilted his head and kissed back. Holding you so tightly yet gently

'We love you for who you are. Your flaws, your beauty. Everything', he muttered in the kiss and you smiled, not believing your luck for having someone so precious as them in your life

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An update after 2 months I'm so sorry 😭

I might have lost my touch :(