Look Behind You (An Epistolary)

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June 19

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Eri
@Xienne anue na

11:24 am

Xie
Hai goiz

Eri
XIENNE
GAGA KA BAKIT WALA KA BA KASING PASABI???
Nasaan ka ngayon?

Riri
What the hell happened?
Bakit bigla ka nalang umalis sa apartment?
May problema ba?

Xie
HALA
KALMA NAMAN MGA TEH😭😭😭
Look i'm sorry
Hindi ko naman aakalain na ganyan reaksyon nyo since sanay naman na kayo na minsan bigla bigla nalang ako nawawala

Eri
Kung hindi pa namin na-contact si tita

Rielle
Si kuya alexei nanaman ba 'to?

Eri
....

Xie
Ha?
Anong alexei ka jan
Hindi ba pwedeng umuwi lang?😭

Riri
Xienne
Diba sabi naman namin sayo
We're here for you?
Just tell us
Well if ayaw mo talaga then okay i respect that
Pero we also want to know
We're now also friends with kuya alexei and hindi namin alam kung pano ba kami a-akto when we don't know anything about what's happening
And please don't try to dismiss the topic kasi alam naman namin na may problema sa pagitan nyo ni kuya alexei

Xie
Naguguluhan narin talaga ako sa sarili ko
Ano kasi
Wait shit
It's hard to just talk about it like this
Call?

Eri
Sure sure

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Riri
Like what we said
Try and follow your heart this time xie
Don't hold it back
Ilabas mo na yang nararamdaman mo
It's good to be logical, to try and use your mind more in making such decisions
pero this time
Try and let your heart lead the way
Alisin mo muna ang mga what if's na wala rin namang kasiguraduhan kung mangyayari nga ba o hindi
Take the fucking risk xie

Xie
I also took the fucking risk before tapos anong nangyari?
I don't want that to happen again

Riri
Well that's because the person that you took the risk to before is the wrong person
I mean it's not like i'm saying that kuya alexei's the right person
But i can definitely see and feel that this risk you'll make if ever will be worth it
Pero putting that aside
Choice mo parin naman 'yan

Eri
Pero xie, don't let yourself get drowned by your what if's forever
Mangyayari nyan e mas-stuck ka nalang dyan
Tsaka nasa getting to know each other phase palang naman kayo
Let your feelings be
If things end up wrong edi wtf
Chos pero ayon nga, like what they always say
Everything happens for a reason
Kung di mo susubukan hindi mo malalaman

Xie
Okay i get it
I'll think things through

Eri
Basta we're always here no matter what
We're still young
There are also a lot of things waiting ahead of us
There's so much more in life than boys😂

Riri
Hindi naman sa binabalewala namin ung nangyari sayo before
Like fuck that!
Look at what all that happened before did to you
Your past experiences are haunting you to the point that you can't even express and let your feelings grow naturally
Pero ayon nga, ngayon palang overthink ka na ng overthink
Tapos pano kapag you decided to step back? you'll also end up thinking na paano kaya kung i took the risk? Paano kaya kung hindi ako naduwag? You'll also end up with those unanswered questions

Eri
So the only way to find out is to go for it!
Tsaka as much as i know, wala rin namang third party diba? jk hshs

Riri
Kami na bahala kay kuya alexei kung sakali man chos

Eri
Aba naman wag naman sana sya mapatulad dun sa gagong nang-gago sayo dati
AY JOKE PO BAD BAD

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Wth eri😭😭😭

Eri
Totoo naman e
Joker amp
🤡🤡🤡

Xie
HHAHAHAHAHAH SHUNGA
Pero thank you sainyooo
I'll keep all the things you both said in mind
Pero i just can't decide right now
Will the both of you support my decision?
No matter what?
Chs

Eri
Syemperds
YIIIEEEE
Go go go!

Riri
Take your time
We got your back

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