I Choose Blue (Yuri GirlXGirl)

Diary 2

Diary 2

Ren approaches me one day when I was sitting under the cherry blossom tree. I guess he caught on to my random stares during class.

I had a huge crush on him, and he finally notices me. Could this be a dream come true?

At the time I was super excited for him to talk to me. He came over to sit next to me, and peeked at my readings.

"What you got there?" He says with a small grin on his thin lips.

"Shakespeare." I smiled.

His eyes widen, and his smile increased. "You know English? Wow what a smart girl you are."

"I guess." I was too busy blushing to think up decent responses.

"Want to hang out after school?" He asked out of the blue. It caught me off guard.

He has never looked as pretty as he did under this cherry blossom tree. His black hair flew elegantly with the wind, and his light eyes shone brighter then ever. Maybe he likes me too. I know he does.

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"Tell me about your hobbies." Ren sits across from me with his burger in his hands. He takes a huge bite, and smiles at me.

I thought for a bit. I didn't have a particular hobby that I would point out. "I love to cook. I just love making dishes that can make people smile." It sounded corny, but I wanted to make a good impression. I acted like this was some job interview, but I knew it clearly wasn't.

"How about you?" I decided to reciprocate.

"I love reading. It's a passion. I want to be a writer one day." He looks into the distance. I found that such a beautiful sight. A passionate man is a handsome one.

"That is cute." I wasn't as shy as I thought I was. A part of me felt he is interested in me too. I could see it in his eyes. He wanted me. The deep stares he would give me.

Am I lucky?

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"I don't think anyone is home." I slowly opened my house door. It was already eight o' clock, and no one was home since today was movie night. Luckily I lied to my parents about going over a friend's house prior so they wouldn't ask me to go.

We walked upstairs, and he pushes me down on my bed. His warm lips starts to attach to my neck. He would smother my neck with kisses, and light bites.

I closed my eyes, and I saw that girl with blue hair. I imagine her taking control of me. Wait what? What am I thinking? I snapped back to reality.

I should be happy the boy I like is doing this with me. I tried to enjoy the moment.

I got on top of him, and my hands roam to unzip his jeans. I pulled out his manhood that was already swollen with excitement.

He pulls out a condom from his pocket, and slips it on. There is no turning back now.

His masculine hands tug off my jeans, and then my blouse. The pace was fast, and I wasn't getting the least bit thrilled.

He pulls my head down to his so our lips locked. My tongue slid into his oral cavity, and we were in a heavy make out session.

His fingers began working up my wet cave. I could feel his long slender fingers slip into me, and I let out a small moan.

His finger would do their job, and so was his tongue. I could feel his finger detaching from me, and I could feel the tip of his erection slowly entering me.

"Uhhnnn..." I moan out, and his hips started to move. Thrust by thrust I could feel every part of him in me. It felt good, but not satisfying.

I move my body with his as I ride my crush. He would let out small huffing breaths. I could tell he was enjoying himself.

He goes to unhook my bra, and his big hands cupped my c-cup boobs. His index, and thumb gently squeezes my nipples making me whimper out in pleasure.

Ren flips me over so I was on the bottom. His hands pin down mines, and he starts to increase his pace. I could hardly contain my rapid breathing.

"C-coming." He grunts as his hips pushes quicker into me. I nodded since I could feel my body quivering, and waiting to release as well.

The final seconds of our sex lasted greatly until I felt his voice crack at releasing his cream into the condom. He pulls out, and falls down next to me on the bed. "That was great." He kisses me. "Didn't you think so?" He looks at me, and waits for my response.

"Yeah." I smiled, and went to kiss him. I lied a great deal. The sex was meaningless. I didn't feel satisfied, and clearly faked an orgasim. All that was flowing through my mind was that blue hair girl.

What is wrong with me? Fantasizing about some girl when I knew I wasn't into girls. I have had multiple boyfriends, and had sex with men. They would be satisfying, but my body never had an actual orgasim from having heterosexual sex.

Maybe I am a lesbian?

No way. I never looked at girls nor had the intentions to. I pulled the covers over me, and I quickly fell asleep.

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I woke up the next morning with a note next to my pillow. I took a good look at it when I was still half asleep.

"Last night was amazing. We should hang out again sometime."

I knew instantly Ren planted this before he left. I should be happy. He likes me back, but I honestly didn't even feel remotely happy at the least.

This whole having sex with Ren should just be a random fling. I wondered if I would ever see that girl again.

My brain wouldn't escape from the sexy girl in short blue hair.

To Be Continued