first love || jay

𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻

ⁱᵐᵐᵃ ˢᵃʸ ⁱᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ˢʰⁱᵖ ᵃⁿʸ ⁱᵈᵒˡˢ ʰᵉʳᵉ
ⁱ ʲᵘˢᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ⁱⁿᶜˡᵘᵈᵉ ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵐᵉᵐᵇᵉʳˢ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ᶠᵃᵛᵒᵘʳⁱᵗᵉ ᵏᵖᵒᵖ ᵍʳᵒᵘᵖˢ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᶠᶠシ︎ ˢᵒ ʸᵉᵃʰ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ⁱᵗ ˢᵉʳⁱᵒᵘˢˡʸ ᵗʰⁱˢ ⁱˢ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᶠᵒʳ ᵉⁿᵗᵉʳᵗᵃⁱⁿᵐᵉⁿᵗ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʸˢᵐᵐ ᶠᵒʳ ʳᵉᵃᵈⁱⁿᵍ ᵐʸ ᶠᶠ☻︎  - 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝖾𝗋

'yes i like him'
'but i should stop loving him'
'he already has a girlfriend '
'i will stop loving him'

i got out of the washroom. i washed my face to clear up.

"heyy y/n what happened" yuna approached me.
"nothing just a headache" i lied.

i hate lying, but i never tell what's going on in my mind to someone, even if it's my mum. but i had to lie to her.

"do you want any medicines?" yuna worried.
"no its okay its just a tiny headache" i replied.

we both walked back to our class. i went back to my sit and seated like nothing happened.
>>>>

"students! do PowerPoint presentation work" "and NO shouting" the teacher yelled that made our class silent.

why should i sit besides jay? can't they change their seating
i quietly went and sat on my seat.
after sometime my keyboard started to play wierd.

"ayo what happened"
"idk, this isn't working" i tapped the keyboard aggressively.

nothing is working for me fml, i try to stay away from him but that doesn't just happen.

"lemme try" his hands again brushed on mine. the same tingling feeling on my spine.
"no i will do it" i said pulling the keyboard towards me.
"kay fine then do it yourselves" he said rolling his eyes.

> > > >

"wanna come to the movies tommorow" beomgyu asked.
"no-"
"i already got the tickets so you should definitely come with us" beomgyu grinned.
"us? who all are there?"
"jake,niki,sunoo and jay"
i got 6 tickets, you're the last one" beomgyu smiled.
"what about sunghoon and yuna?"
"they said they already took the ticket, they're going on a date"
"ohh" i chuckled, for a moment i realised jay is coming which changed my expression.
"why?what's the problem"
"i kinda have to go with my mom tommorow so i think I'll be not comi- someone cut my word.
"If she's not coming then I'll come" da eun approached us
"you're sure?" beomgyu asked.

now where tf did she come from?

"nah i just remembered it was sunday, tommorow is saturday ryt?" "i'll come" i changed my plan.
"okayy then" beomgyu smiled.

da eun rolled her eyes and left..

"da eun- where did she go?" beomgyu lifted his head from the phone.
"i don't know she left" i said.

>>>>>>>
i reached home. layed on my bed.
wtf did i just do? why did i say that i'll go? what is going on in my head?? do i think i"ll have a chance with him if i go wtf. and he already has a girlfriend.. but she's annoying.. everything is annoying me.
                       whatever i don't care anymore. i guess I'll just stay friends with jay like usual. if i completely ignore him that would hurt his feelings..

10:16 pm

i suddenly got a message. i checked my phone...