Delightful Desire | kanemoto yoshinori

[ Chapter 1 ]

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"He bought me to his place yesterday and offered me dinner made by him and after that we took a peaceful walk in the park . He bought me to a swing and stood before me . Gosh it was all so fast , he was really nervous . He closed the spaces between us to kiss that moment memorable . That was the best moment of my life to have my first boyfriend . It's still important to me . That's when the things start spicing up , he actually dumped me for that fat cheerleader bitch . He literally broke with a letter in my locker . I mean like seriously , did he really have to write a damn letter to say three words " she allwows me to speak after listening to her from half An hour .

"So are you upset because he wrote a whole damn letter explaining her fell in Love with someone else , and Not text you ?" I asked with a bit of dissatisfaction . She clocked her tongue on the other side , confusing me . "As if he didn't have fingers to type but a Pen to scribble his shit" she gets frustrated And I throw my head back in her so called 'relationship stress' .

"So what good did the letter did ?" I rubbed my eyes watching the time and it's One in the morning , too short for when she called me at twelve at night .

"I just read the last lines and Not that two Page of shit along with it" she lowers her voice as I rested on the edge of my bed . "You read that , don't lie" I smile observing her silence , "I didn't read that trash from that asshole" she defents herself . "Sure ?" I try to satisfy her words and she answered me with her silence .

"At least he was this thoughtful to Not be like other guys and write two pages for you" her make her look on the Bright side with my One percent of Hope that will get her some Hope .

I head her sniff on the other side , "Don't be like those Hopeless girls who cry after a breakup as if their whole word has been gone wrong . Even if he was your Boyfriend you still had time to find the right One for yourself . Everyone sometimes take different roads from what has been made from them , so no need to cry over yourself , instead it should be him who should regret for leaving you in such a state . Soom , don't look back , you are Not that girl" I explain her and hear some More sniffs .

"Your condition was much worse than mine , you still handled yourself so well and here I am already feeling like hell in this world..." She stopped and I already forbade myself to look back on it again .

"I learned that from you , because I knew that a person's first try always cannot be the right One..." My eyes felt glossy but my should held back my tears .

"We don't cry for men , we want men to cry for us" I repeat a quote that we both
Made after entering high school and it was really persuaded us to realise men are Not everything in a women's life , we all are humans after all .

"Sometimes I envy you , that you always keep negative things to yourself and only bring out positive words..." From here I could feel her hoarse voice , just like I did that night of my breakup .

"I am Happy though" I change that topic and she carefully listens "You are Happy that i will be single my whole life ?" She joked and I gave all my energy to give a real chuckle , "You are too attractive to stay single , at least I could have you for sometime , all for myself" i make her giggle .

"What if you get a boyfriend ?" She asks the question which I Hope she wouldn't have , "I am Not pretty sure , my trust in men has reduced ... So probably no ?!" I answer and lay back staring at the black white ceiling . "Let's stop this men talk ,makes me wanna faint" I sigh and she agreed .

"I am so Happy for tomorrow " I heard some rustles from her side meaning she got under her blanket . "I am Not , it was better staying home then to interact and meet new students again" I Said out of exhaustion And she huffed . "Just you and your introvert side" I could foresee her eye roll .

"It's better thought . It's really peaceful and pleasant" I negotiated how good it feels to Not interact much and stay in your place .

"What if you make new friends ?" She stated forgetting how I explained her that I likeed being alone . "I don't know probably be the silent girl while you talk your soul out with others" she giggles making me chuckle too .

"But I really want to ask something .." She puts forward , "go ahead" I permit her , "Like if you make a new boyfriend , are you going to trust him .?" She boldly states , "I gotta judge him if possible" I give it a second thought . "That's great" she shortly answers and the 'Not so awkward' silence dumps between us .

"So let's get to bet...I don't want to be late for the new beginning" I break the silence and heard the Same from her . I put my phone for charging on the nighstand and pull up the blanket . Again staring at the ceiling .

A boyfriend , I don't think I will ever push myself blindly on someone again .