Day 3

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No one is probably going to look at this but,
Have you ever just felt dead?
Not actually, just one the inside.
That one feeling where you just. . .

Can't?

I don't know how to describe it.
But it's when you lay down
And stare into nothing.

When you stand in the shower head down
Arms hanging limp by your side
While water runs over your eyelids.

I'm not alone right?
I'm not the only one.
Hopefully.

Right now that's how I feel,

Dead.

Just empty.

Like I've done everything the earth had to offer
Like I've never felt.

Sometimes,
It's calming
Ya know?

But

Right now that's not how I feel.

I feel

COLD

It's frightening.
It's chilling.
It's. . .

Nothing?

It makes me sick.
The feeling of death
The feeling of nothing
The feeling of emptiness
The feeling of confusion.

The feeling of death makes me want to die.
Is that odd?

It sounds odd.

When I feel dead,
I give up.

I don't run to my bed in laughter and fear when I turn off the lights.
I don't eat, anything, even the dinner that's been home cooked.
I don't cry I can't I tried, thinking mabye it would help.
I CANT FEEL

I want to but it's a the point where I'm only. . .
Cold
Nothing
Empty
And
Dead

The feeling that I just. . .

Can't.

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