secrets or lies: a johannie story

seventeen.

johnnys pov:

i was hoping annie came to the soccer game today.
she said she would see me saturday so i assume she won't be here, but the rest of her group is coming.
i'm trying not to get my hopes up.
we talked a little bit, more like argued a lot.
she still hasn't forgiven me, which is understandable, i just wish she knew how bad i feel.
she still wants lauren and i to come on the trip.
i don't know if she necessarily wants us to, but she knows how much it meant to lauren and she isn't the type of person to hurt someone else.

we were in the locker room and i was looking at my phone to see if there was any call or text from her and there wasn't.
i put my head back on my locker.
connor: what's wrong capt, jules drama?
j: how'd you know?
c: math class wasn't exactly subtle. especially when my girlfriend is the one blocking you in.
j: you and jayde?
c: yup, you wouldn't know it right.
j: i didn't have a clue.
c: yeah, we're very quiet about it. now what's going on with you two?

j: jules hates me; i screwed up big time.
c: just talk to her, she's one of the easier ones once you give her time to cool off.
j: yeah i hope so.
c: text her right now, i think she's coming to the game.
he thinks she is coming to the game, she hasn't responded in the group chat in about a day or so, but i guess they talk privately.

j: i will thanks.
c: no problem.
he says walking away.

i texted jules:
hey, i know you don't owe me any favors, but it would mean the world to me if you came to the game. seeing you in the bleachers makes playing on the field a lot easier.

that was risky; but at least i said what i needed to.

i heard a ding come from my phone and i raced to pick it up.
it was just my mom.
apologizing for everything that happened last night.
it read: hey john i know it's a little late, but i'm sorry for packing up and leaving. this has nothing to do with you or your sisters it's just i can't do it anymore. you guys shouldn't have to put up with it.

it would've been nice for her to call.
i started to tear up a bit all of the emotions just hit at once again.
like you get a cut and it re opens.
watching your family fall apart is hard, i do not wish that pain on anyone.

after a few minutes of starring at the text message from my mom the boys and i were called to go to the field.
i check one more time to see if there was a message from annie end there wasn't.
i walked out to the field and looked at the home stands and there she was.
sitting on her phone typing away.
it felt like a massive weight off my shoulder.

once they noticed we walked out her friends put up signs.
jaydes sign was for connor.
lilias was for lucas.
hayley and nadia had one for asher.
jules put hers up last, but it was for me.
i smiled instantly.
it said "JVO #8"
and had little fireworks around it.
i waved to her and she faintly smiled and waved back.

the game went well, we won and i scored two goals.
seeing annie in the stands, not only there supporting me but cheering me on made it all worth it.
i will never stop fighting for this girl.

when i grabbed my stuff annie did text me back.
it said: i'm already in the stands.
i was walking off the field and the group was huddled by the stands.
connor, asher and i walked over together.
jayde: congrats guys!
lil: you guys did great.
ash: did you see mister superstar over here scoring two goals.
c: we did, congrats johnny.
n: yeah congrats.
lil: congrats that was awesome.
a: yeah congrats.
annie says low and not looking up at me.
j: thank you guys.

you could tell annie was being distant.
jay: okay i want pictures
a: i'll take them.
annie says grabbing jaydes phone and taking photos of her and connor.
once they finished jayde asked a question.
jay: anns do you want some with john.
a: uhm
she hesitated
a: yeah, can you get some of ash and i too.
jay: yeah definitely.

does she actually want photos, or is she just being civil in front of everyone.
she walked over to me and put her arm around my back so i did the same thing.
a: no this pose is so awkward, put your arm on my shoulders.
j: okay.
so i did that
jay: super cute, okay ash.

i walked out of the frame.
and asher walked towards her and her smile instantly started to show.
a: can we recreate the one from freshman year.
ash: the one of you hugging me.
a: yeah
annie says laughing
they take that one.
jay: and a serious one.
asher put his arm around her and she laid her head on his chest area.
a similar one to mine so i don't know how to feel about us.
jay: that ones good, okay let's go to anns house.

they start to walk away and i waited for jules.
j: hey thanks for coming.
a: yeah no problem.
j: and thanks for the sign. you didn't have to do that.
a: it was nothing.
j: no it was not nothing, you may have only done it so i wouldn't be the only one in the group without one, but when i saw it it made me smile instantly. it made me feel like you really care about me.
a: if it wasn't obvious.
she says giggling trying to hide her sadness.
i can read annie, i know when she's hurting and i know when she's happy.

a: you're apart of our family, and we all look out for each other. i will always look out for you.
she says with tears coming out of her eyes.
j: hey do not cry not over me! i screwed this up not you.
a: that doesn't make me feel any better.
j: i know.
qi giggled for a second
j: when we were taking the photo i know it was only a second, but having my arms around you everything felt like how it was supposed to be.
she faintly smiled at me.
a: yeah, it did.
she said softly.

a/n: omg hey friend, i'm gonna finish this story. sorry for disappearing for like six months.