Valerio // 18+|| book 1

7

"I'm really sorry about what I did believe me I am. I always fuck up and hurt you the process and I'm truly sorry. I know what I did was fucked up but you have to understand that if I didn't do that I would have lost all the chances of being able to take care of my family. You know it's hard on us and the job they offer in our world doesn't help shit. You're right I wasn't thinking about you at the time I was thinking about my mom and my little sister" he said while looking into my eyes.

"We are human beings so yes we fuck up sometimes but that's because we're not perfect. I had to do it for my family and I'm sure you would have done anything to do the same for your family even if you have to hurt me in the process," he said and I looked at my fingers.

He's right.

"I don't know what else to do or say, Lydia. I just want you back,"

"Okay but first you have to know that I dan-" I looked up at him before looking away

I wasn't able to tell him and I dance in lingerie to make money

I just couldn't

So I told him half of the truth

"I slept with someone," I said and the room went silent.

"It's okay if you change your mind about wanting to be with me. I get it" I said after a few minutes of silence

I heard him sigh before hearing him stand

"Did it mean anything?"

"No," I said

I mean it was just steamy, hot, mind-blowing, incredible- it was just sex.

I didn't have feelings for Valerio right?

I mean I don't think so-

"Are you still seeing the guy?" he asked and I looked at him

"No," I said and he nodded.

I was telling the truth right?

It's not like I have seen him since that night

"Come here," he said and I got up.

He pulled me into his arms and I wrapped my hands around his waist

"It would be unfair to not forgive you," he said while talking about our past.

Grayson has cheated on me twice.

Why am I still with him?

He has it hard on his end and his little sister always get me to talk to him.

"I love you okay," he said before placing a kiss on my forehead.

"I love you too," I said

We ended up watching a movie and eating popcorn. He got a message and got up

"Is everything okay?" I asked

"Boss needs us," he responded

Well at least I know he's alive now

"It's eleven-thirty," I said and he placed the phone next to me while standing

I looked down at the phone and Marco sent another text

"He said you should hurry up," I said as he placed his shoes on.

"I love you bye," he said before grabbing up the phone and placing a kiss on my lips.

"Love you too," I said as he made his way out. I then got up and locked the door before going to bed.

I woke up at 4:35 and went for a run. I returned home in one hour. My hands reach for the knob but the door opened before I touched it.