Without Jaxton (Loving Jaxton Book #2)

lets do this (again) - chapter 22

"Shhh! Mama is asleep." I hear Jax's voice with the boys as he tells them to be quiet. I wonder what's up with this? I pretend to sleep when I hear a glass on the nightstand and immediately feel breath on my cheek.

"Mama" I hear Kurt whisper into my ear. "Mama. Mama wake up." He whispers over and over as I smile and pretend to wake up by stealing a kiss on his cheek.

"Good morning my handsome." I tell him pulling him to me making him squeal as I kiss his little cheeks. "Daddy! Don't let her get me!" He squeals as I tickle his belly and make him squeal a little harder. Jax takes him away and throws him in the air making him laugh as Lance comes onto the side of the bed and sits next to me. I throw my arm over his shoulder and kiss his cheek before telling him I love him.

He of course wipes the kiss off, but it's what stops me next. "Daddy let me ask!" Kurt exclaims stopping me as I look up at Jax. I finally look into his eyes and he's not okay. His hands are shaking, and he's so nervous. I look over at the nightstand and see a full breakfast made for me, along with flowers.

"I made that pancake!" Kurt tells me pointing to the big blob as I smile and rub his back. The bacon is cooked perfectly and I know the eggs are cooked the way I love. Along with that is a small bowl of fruit, and a note card from the boys with a big heart on it. I stare back at Jax before he extends his hand to mine and pulls me out of the bed.

"Ry" he whispers rubbing my hand as I nod. I rub his hand when I stop him. "What's wrong? What's going on?" I ask him. He then drops to one knee on the side of the bed. What is he- he's not.

"Ry I want to do this again with you. The right way, and I promise you, I promise you that this time I'm really trying. I love you baby." He tells me smiling as I smile as wide as I can. He reaches into his pajama pants and pulls out a box as he opens it and extends it to me.

"I love the old one, and I know you do too. But this one, I feel like this one is meant for us, not because we rushed into it but because it's for us. Ry will you marry me again?" He asks as I instantly start smiling and tears whelp in my eyes.

"Yes! Yes mama will!" Kurt exclaims as I look back smiling at him as he sits with Lance.

"Of course I will" I tell him pulling him to me as I hug his neck. "See daddy! Told you mama would like that one!" Kurt tells him as I kiss Jax and rub his shoulders.

"Thank you babe. I love you." I whisper onto his lips as he smiles. "I love you too, I was so damn nervous." He whispers back pulling the ring out and slips it on the other hand. Meaning I now have two rings instead of one, he's officially spoiling me way too much.

"Two is always better than one, this one. I- Umm, Ry I never even knew it existed until I was cleaning the house out when I moved out and found it, it's my moms old ring. I didn't even know where she had left it that day she passed." He tells me as I smile and nod.

It means that much more to me now. "I love it." I whisper onto his lips kissing him again. I pull away from him and kiss his cheek before rubbing his brown hair in my hand.

"I love you so much." I whisper kissing his neck as I smile.

"God I love you Ry." He whispers into my neck as I smile and cover my tears. This right here, five years ago, I never thought this would happen. Now here we are, and I wouldn't change it for the world.

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Two months later

We're standing in the courthouse holding hands as we stare into each other's eyes and it's perfect. The kids are with my parents, and it's just Jax and I, well and the officiant.