Without Jaxton (Loving Jaxton Book #2)

so good - chapter 17

Rylee's POV

The night is so unusual, it's so odd. I'm not used to Jax being here, so when we're showering together after dinner, it feels odd. Kind of like it used to, and not a bad type of odd, just an unfamiliar kind of odd.

He's washing his hair while I'm behind him and his prominent shoulders are in the fog. I'm almost drooling as I look at all his tattoos, I haven't really seen them in forever. I reach up and rub the one one his shoulder blade, it's the one he got for me and the kids. It's "His girls" with Kurt and Lance, it has my name in the center of a tree with the branches being all of our kids evenly dispersed along his shoulder blade.

I move to the big eagle on his shoulder, and then the tribal patterns on his bicep with a barbed wire around his arm. He's got so many, and I've asked him about the meaning of them but he's gotten even more since then.

"Wanna see my new one?" He whispers looking over his shoulder feeling my fingers move across his shoulder blades.

"Yep" I whisper as he turns. He moves my hands to his chest and then to the sides of his waist as he lifts his right arm. He shows me the side of his body and it's on the side of his rib cage. But what stops me is what it is.

I didn't even notice it, and I feel so bad that I didn't. But in my defense his whole body is covered in tattoos now, and I didn't even realize this one.

It's-, it's my face. "Oh my god Jax when did you get this?" I ask lifting his armpit and looking at my face with my typical curled hair, I'm slightly smiling with the black and white color and it's so immaculate. It's not like a regular sketch it's an in-depth portrait of me that looks so good. It's not the typical cheap tattoo art, it's like all his tattoos, super detailed and in black and white only.

"A few years back." He tells me as I rub it under his arm. "Wanna look under the other one?" He asks as I nod. He lifts his other arm and shows me his other rib cage and my heart melts. It's all of our children's faces, the picture they took for the portraits I put on the wall. I made them lay on a blanket, and Maddie was in the middle with the two boys beside her. They looked so adorable in the picture, and I knew in that moment I was getting a portrait made of my favorite picture of them not fighting or playing.

"I love theses." I whisper rubbing my fingers over his tattoos as I smile. "I'm glad." He tells me as he looks down at me. He pulls me to him as he rubs my back.

"You ever thought about it?" He asks. "Tattoos?" I ask him as he nods. "I can't have it visible with my job but yeah, I've thought about it. Maybe my rib cage or back." I tell him as he smiles.

"Or somewhere else?" He asks as I stare at him blankly not knowing what he means. "I say when this works for the second time, and we're ready to really be married again, living together everything, we get tattoos together." He tells me as I smile.

"What kind?" I ask. "Well I already have you on me, so maybe just like something we both think fits us." He tells me as I smile.

"I'll think about it. When I figure it out I'll let you know. How about that?" I ask as he nods. "Good, now turn and let me wash your back." He tells me as I laugh.

"You know that won't happen Jax!" I scold as he smiles and lifts me on his waist. "It's the thought that counts babe." He tells me back before pushing me into the tile wall and taking me in the shower.

I love this.

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We're laying down in bed together tonight and it's amazing. We're just watching television together, I'm laying in his arms, they're wrapped around my body, holding me in place and I'm laying on his naked chest. We're kind of back to us, I'm in his tee, and he's in boxers, that's it. We're not watching cartoons for once, we're watching a romantic comedy. It's so quiet in this house without the kids running around and I hate it. I thought I would enjoy it but normally Maddie would be in here watching Disney with me.