Moving On (Outsiders Headcanon Story)

Lonesome Nights

It's been weeks since Cherry and I stopped talking, Weeks since my heart broke. I hadn't realized how lonely I was until she stopped talking to me.

All because of society, we can't be together. All because if people seen a greaser and a soc together they'd consider it as disappointing, wrong, Chaos.

Soda has been helpful here and there, comforting me, making sure I'm alright. He seems to be just fine now, I'm glad he moved on. But, I just can't, with nothing. Johnny and Dally had been lurking through my thoughts, I try to not think about them, but it comes without any control.
Their smiles, their laughs filling the empty, soundless walls. Causing me to feel angry with myself. Just thinking back, it was my fault I didn't pay attention to the time, it was my fault I ran away when Darry hit me. I deserved to drown in that fountain.

I still miss them, I always will. I just wished they came back, I wished things were better. Everything seems so hopless, dreadful, dull. Seems the luck I've been having can make a good man turn bad. I'm scared deep inside. What if I end up like Dallas? I honestly didn't want to. 

I gusse for now I need to take some time on myself, If I don't I know I'll break.