love and heartache

dont go

Why do our disagreements make me feel like you don't want to be with me anymore?

Why do our talks make me feel like you're going to walk out the door?

Am I too insecure or too reticent? Am I alexithymiac or just apathetic?

I don't know why I am not able to express my love, maybe I'm simply pathetic.

I make you nothing but miserable, I failed to hold my end of the bargain,

I promised to keep you happy and now we have nothing but tear stains.

You made me the happiest I've ever been and I'll never forget what all you did for me,

And I'll never stop loving you, even if we don't get to have white lilies by the sea.

You'll always be the one for me, the one whom I loved the most,

The one who got me like no one did, the one for whom poems I wrote.

You are unparalleled, there is no other like you.

You are simply divine, too good to be true.

And now it seems I messed us up, I don't know how I manage to do this,

Even when things are too good to be ruined, I somehow jeopardize my relationships.

I don't know the reason but I do know that you can't bear me any longer,

I can't make you stay, so thank you, you made me happier and stronger.

You mean more to me than I show and I am sorry for not treating you right,

I hope you find someone better, someone who doesn't let you go without sorting out a fight.

you made me believe in love again and for that I can't thank you enough,

I won't hold you back, I promise; I don't want to let you go, I won't bluff.