Dear X,
When we were playing Groundies this girl who was a grade or so below us kept bitching at us for shit we didn't do to her brother. Tate kept saying, "We are just a bunch of teenagers trying to play a god damn game for nine year olds, no one is going to be flipping off your brother. We're just trying play a kid's game!" It made me of how we all just grew up way too fast when we shouldn't have. Almost all of us knew what it was like to be the one who caused ourselves to bleed. At least one point or another we were insecure. A few of us hated ourselves.
Maybe that's why we find sanity in playing like children at a park. It gives us a childhood we never had with friends we didn't have. Even though most of us hate each other. Everyone has two or three different friends and those friends have other friends who hate the other friends. Nobody really likes everyone. We all have our grudges that we hold.
But if a child's game is what it takes to calm me the fuck down, then I'll fucking play it all the time. Madi, Ryan, and Alex are the only people who like me there. Madi is my friend, I hate Alex, and Ryan and I aren't that close anymore. I'll take it if I have to. I wish you were here, then they wouldn't judge me so much.
-Casely
