Fiercely Burning(Salvador Series #2)

Kabanata 18

Kabanata 18

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Hinubad niya ang kanyang hood at sinuot ito sa akin. Hindi ko na narinig ang mga lalaki sa kabilang kalsada and to the guy who attempted to cross the road.

"I'll take you home..." He whispered hoarsely.

Tahimik akong tumango.  Sinuot niya  sa akin ang hood ng kanyang jacket at pinanatili doon ang kanyang kamay. Sumong kami sa ulan hanggang ma abot ang kanyang sasakyan.

I watched him jog his way to the driver seat, his t-shirt was a bit dumped because of the rain. Hindi mo na siya pumasok at tinignan ang mga lalaki sa kabilang kalsada na hindi pa pala nakakaalis.

Ilang minuto niya itong tinitigan bago pumasok ng kotsye. He glance at me. Tinignan ko siya ngunit mabilis lang. Niyakap ko ang aking sarili dahil sa lamig. He turn off the aircon and turn on the heater.

"Do you wanna eat ramen?" He asked in the middle of silence.

Umiling ako. I want to go home and soaked my body with warm water. Ako'y pumikit at sumandal sa bintana. Nilingon ko bahagya ang kamay niyang pumatong sa aking hita. It went in between my clasped hand and reach for my left hand before intertwinding it.

I stared at his thumb caressing mine.

My heart starts to raise. Why do my heart always react like this. Palagi  nalang natutunaw ang tampo ko sa kanya pag ginagawa niya ito. His simple moves can melt the disappointment in my heart.

Isa ako sa mga halimabawa ng babaeng marupok.

Hindi ko napansin ang paghinto ng kotsye sa tapat ng ramen restaurant. Nakita kong tinignan niya ako bago bumaba ng kotsye He went out and run towards the restaurant. Bumalik siyang may dalang dalawang ramen.

He mix the ramen before handing it to me.

It was an awkward silent between the two of us.

"You want more?" He asked when I finished my ramen.

Umiling ako.

Kinuha niya mula sa akin ang cup at tinapon ito. He came back and started the car.

"Can you say something?"he said softly.

"Hmm?" Nilingon ko siya bahagya.

He heavy sighed. Niliko niya ang kanyang kotsye at hininto ito sa gilid ng kalsada. Humarap siya sa akin.

"I'm sorry..." He started.

"I was a total scumbag for...making you... wait..."nahihirapan niyang aniya. "...what do you want me to do for you to forgive me?"

"Don't say words like that, acicularly you can't give me what I want..."

Binalingan ko siya ng tingin.

"...you know you can't give it..."

He lick his lips and look away.

"I'm trying." he whispered.sumandal siya at pumikit. His forehead is creased. Parang may malaking problema.

Tinignan ko siya ilang sandali bago nag iwas ng tingin.

Trying means his oblige to love me back and it shouldn't be that way. It's not the process of love. Love will let you feel it... My motives was only for him to notice me, to notice my presence so he can put his attention on me but I guess my words was wrong and put him in the position where his coerce to love me back.

And I don't want that kind of love...

"Beb?"rinig kong ani ni Jainie.

"Huh?"