Burnout (K.Sn) [Sequel]

Hated (2)

'Attention seeking whore'

'She should be slapped with a brick, repeatedly'

'She brings dishonor to her whole family, what a slut'

'The fact that a fat whale like her can even be in a succesful group baffles me. But it doesn't baffle me more than her size'

'Her face should've never been in any entertainment industry. She is an untalented, ugly, hidesous, disgusting cow that should never be allowed to go out another door'

I quietly sat in my bunk and continued to delete mean comment after mean comment on my birthday post for Sunoo. It was supposed to be a happy post so I was trying to delete all negativity off of it, so Sunoo wouldn't see, and so none of the other boys would see for that sake as well.

"Noona?" Niki excitedly spoke up making me look to him, standing by the door out of the living room waiting with Jungwon and Sunoo as well, "we're gonna do a maknaes Vlive."

"Oh..." I hummed and turned off my phone, "now?"

"Yeah, come on," Jungwon nodded at me, "we prepared to make a cake."

"I think I'm skipping today," I shook my head with a small smile to them.

"How do we bake a cake without noona helping us?" Niki muttered to the other two.

"I'd sit behind the camera and guide you. But I'm too tired to be on screen," I stated making the three immediately grin at me before Niki rushed over and pulled me up from my place in the couch and pulled me out to the kitchen.

I quietly sat in a chair by the dinning table, opposite of the boys. I started the live and quietly watched as they started the live. I would sit and keep track of the monitor, not saying anything. Instead I would write questions down on a notepad and hold it up for them to talk about whenever they paused in what they were talking about, or write down what they had to do next for making the cake.

"We were... we were supposed to do this live with noona," Jungwon stated as the other two nodded, whilst Niki was working hard on whipping together the batter, "but she was too tired tonight to be on screen. So she's helping us make the cake once in a while."

"Noona is tired a lot lately," Niki nodded in agreement.

"I really don't know what's up with her," Sunoo hummed in agreement making me quickly write down I was fine on the notepad.

I let out a small huff and held up my small message making all the boys look at me and read the notepad. They just stared at me for a few seconds before I simply nodded and looked back at the monitor to see what else they should talk about.

"You think she still... kahoot?" Niki questioned making me let out a small snort as I heard Jungwon let out a loud laugh, "but do you?" Niki questioned once more.

"Noona is a very private person," Jungwon stated and shrugged in return as I glanced up at them, "she will only tell us things that is important to her. She won't tell us if she's struggling with anything."

"Mhm, that's right," Sunoo nodded in agreement as he tasted the batter they had made, "even I am not told some things."

"She's just very private," Jungwon nodded in agreement, "and it's alright, we just get worried soemtimes if she seem off. She don't get bright and happy again as quickly as Sunoo hyung does."

"I just have to take her to a convenience store," Niki stated making the two other snort at him, "noona always gets happier when I take her to the convenience store."

"They go really often during promotions when we're tired," Jungwon nodded as I found a question on the monitor and wrote it down to change the subject.

The boys quickly got lost in the new conversation, making me sit and just doodle around on the notepad, before having to put the cake in the oven to bake whilst the boys finished the live by themselves.

I set the timer for the cake and let the boys finish their live before I went to wash up and change into my pajamas. As the boys exited the kitchen I went into the bedroom to go to bed.

"Goodnight boys," I called out earning two goodnights in return as I rushed in and crawled up in my bunk, getting under my duvet and just staring at the wall in silence.

"Lily?" Sunoo's voice quietly called out as the door creaked open.

I could hear him wandering to his bunk and slapping the duvet before he must've realized I was laying in my own bunk.

"What are you doing?" he muttered and poked my shoulder softly, "I know you're not sleeping. Why are you sleeping in your own bunk?"

"Too tired," I muttered.

I heard Sunoo let out a small huff before I felt my bunk dip down beside me and Sunoo wrapped his arm around my waist and pressed a kiss behind my ear and rubbed his hand on my stomach.

"What's happening?" he quietly questioned.

"I'm just tired," I excused making him hum.

"I know that's not true," he commented, "it's fine to say those comments get to you. I saw the comments on the birthday post."

"I tried to delete them," I whispered.

"I know," he hummed, "I knew you would. Are they getting to you, yes or no?"

"No. I'm just tired today," I excused to him and patted his hand on my stomach, "don't worry."

"You know I can't help but worry," he muttered, "it's my job to worry."

"No... it's your job to be an amazing artist and inspire others, and you do that perfectly," I assured him.

"I prioritize my job as boyfriend higher than that," he stated making me snort.

"You shouldn't," I shook my head, "I'm fine. Don't worry."

"Lily, I know they get to you just a little bit at least," he stated, "tell me about it, I want you to feel better about it."

"Okay..." I muttered, "maybe it affects me a little bit."

"And that's completely fine. You've seen me being down because of comments, it's not a bad thing to be affected by them," he assured and somehow managed to turn me around and look at him, "you're not week because of it, and none of us is blaming you for letting it affect you. We just get more worried when you go around and seem so distant and beside yourself. So from now on, tell at least me whenever something is bothering you, okay?"

"I'll try," I hummed at him.

"Don't just try... just do it, okay?" he stated and I just nodded at him with a small smile, "I prefer seeing you smile."

"I know," I hummed at him.

"You have the prettiest smile I've ever seen walk this plannet, and I'd hate to see it disappear," he whispered and tugged a strand of hair over behind my ear, "got it?"

"Yeah yeah, I hear you," I let out a small laugh before wrapping my arm around him, "now shut up I wanna sleep."

"What about me? Your adorably handsome boyfriend?" he questioned me with a small gasp.

"You're here to cuddle me to sleep, duh," I muttered making him let out a small laugh at me.

"Okay... then I'll do that," he nodded in agreement.

A small smile rested on my face as I held tightly onto Sunoo while he just stroked a hand through my hair, calming me down.