checkmate | stalemate series (BL Novel)

checkmate 011

I apologize for updating so slow ><

life has been so stressful for me and I am having a hard time dealing with my mental health lately. honestly, gusto ko lang magsulat ng magsulat. marami akong ideas and stories na nakaimbak and gusto ko na talaga sila isulat. pero having a 10hrs anxiety inducing workshift is taking most of my time and strength.

I hope life will get better and I am hoping for the day I can finally do what I really love.

Please leave a comment if you like the chapter. That will make me extremely happy :)

P.S I am already working on the next chapter. 

Stay safe everyone!

-k

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** m o v e 0 1 1 **

<< m i s a o >>

"I SEE... MAS GUSTO MO BA KUNG SI SAKI-SAN ANG PAPASOK DITO?"

I felt all the blood drained out from my system the very second I heard Toshiro's voice. Agad akong napaupo para tignan kung siya ba talaga ang nandito ngayon sa loob ng kuwarto ko, kahit na sigurado ako na hindi ako magkakamali sa boses na narinig ko.

I found Toshiro standing a few feet away from my bed and despite the darkness covering his face I can somehow sense the expression he has right now. The room felt so small for the two of us inside, I almost choked on nothing as I held my breath.

Questions started flooding in my mind, the same time my head went blank. I can't even fetch for a word to utter, just to break this unbearable silence. I tried to get up and sit at the edge of the bed, this time, I'm a feet closer to Toshiro. He's an arm's reach away from me. I have to gather all the strength I have just to stop my hands from reaching out and touch him.

"Hindi ka ba makatulog?"

Toshiro remained standing there, motionless. I tried to find the answer to my question in his eyes that were fixed on mine.

"Toshiro?"

"M-May kaibigan akong lalaki noon..." He paused, swallowing a lump in this throat. "At in love siya sa akin."

There was a knot in the pit of my stomach but I waited for him to continue.

"He was someone who pulled me out from my comfort zone during highschool. Palagi kaming magkasama, magkasundo sa lahat ng bagay, siya ang unang taong masasabi kong naging bestfriend ko. He was someone I'm extremely grateful for. Kung ano ako ngayon, sa harap ng ibang tao, ay dahil sa kanya. Dahil sa kanya, nagawa kitang iapproach Misao at maging kaibigan."

My grip on the bed sheet tightened, along with that annoying knot that I'm starting to feel nauseous with every word that comes out of his mouth.

Who is that guy? What's his relationship with Toshiro?

"Buong akala ko, habang buhay kaming magiging magkaibigan. And I wanted him to stay by my side. Syempre, ganun din ako sa kanya. Pero isang araw, naexpose ang love letter niya na nakaaddress para sa akin. I tried to brush it off, sabi ko prank lang yon but the expression on his face clearly says otherwise. I saw the disappointment and pain but I ignored it." Toshiro clenched his fists really hard he's trembling. He never once averted his gaze from mine, I could almost delve into his very soul. "Walang pinagbago sa pakikitungo namin sa isa't isa. Kung paano lumipas ang mga araw namin before that incident, ganun pa rin. Walang nagbago... Hanggang sa kumalat na ang rumor tungkol sa love letter, walang araw na lumipas na hindi kami nakarinig ng bulong-bulungan tungkol sa amin. Pero inignore lang namin yon pareho... Atleast, we tried to. Hindi ko namamalayan na unti unti na pala akong naiilang sa kanya at wala akong ideya na napapansin niya yon at na nasasaktan ko siya."