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Chapter 13

Mom could have been happy if you didn't come along.

I tug on my hair and shut my eyes tight, trying to get rid of the voices echoing in my head.

You're disgusting.

Worthless.

Stuipid.

Weird.

A freak.

Selfish.

A crybaby.

Unloveable.

I curl up and lay back down on the bed, hugging my knees to my chest. My head feels like it's pounding and my lungs feel like they can't get oxygen fast enough.

"Shut up." I mutter under my breath.

Fat.

Ugly.

Unwanted.

Idiotic.

Waste.

"Shut UP."

You ruin EVERYTHING.

You make everyone unhappy!

Everyone wishes you were gone.

Dad, Monoma, EVERYONE!

Including..

Mom and Katsuki. ~

"I said SHUT UP!" I scream and grip my hair. It feels like the walls are closing in on me and I close my eyes tighter.

My ears are ringing and my heart is pounding so hard I can feel it beating in my chest. It feels like the room is caving in on me.

"Make it stop.. please make it stop."

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Katsuki's POV

I continue to scroll on social media when I hear mumbling coming from the room the nerd is in. What's going on in there?

I get up from the couch and place my phone down onto one of the cushions. I walk over to the door and place my ear up to it to hear better.

"Shut UP!" Who's he talking to?

A few seconds go by and I'm about to move away from the door when I hear him yell.

"I said SHUT UP!"

I grow more worried and swiftly open the door. I look into the room and see him curled up into a ball on the bed, his knees to his chest and he's pulling his hair. His breathing is rapid and he's shaking.

Fuck is he having a panic attack?

I make my way over to the bed and sit by him, though he doesn't seem to notice.

"Izuku?" He doesn't respond.

"Make it stop.. please make it stop." His voice sounds so in pain and my heart shatters. It breaks me to see him this upset.

"Izuku can you hear me?" I ask, he doesn't answer which I'm guessing means he can't.

I wrap and arm around his back and bring him into my lap. I take my hand and cup his cheek, which he does notice since he opens his eyes.

I wipe the tears that flood down his freckled cheeks with my thumb. He leans into my hand and continues to sob.

I hug hug him and he places his head in the crook of my neck. He stops shaking as much and he's breathing better. I rub his back with my palm and try to sooth him.

"Why?" He whispers to me, his voice sounding so full of sorrow.

"Why what Izuku?" I ask in a soft tone, something I don't do often, well I have more since Izuku's been around.

"W-why do you care for me? I d-don't understand."

He takes his head off my shoulder to look at me. I keep my arms around his waist and feel myself getting lost in his emerald eyes. They glisten so brightly even when he's sad.

"I d-don't understand why you'd care for someone so useless like me." He looks down at his lap, his voice cracks when he talks from so much crying.

"I don't really understand either, I just wanna... fuck this is really hard to say." I sigh and look away for a moment, almost like I'm trying to figure out my next words before looking back.

I take my thumb and lift his chin so his eyes meet mine.

"I just want to keep you safe alright? I don't want anyone to suffer like this old friend I had did. A-and I just have this urge to keep you safe." I explain to him as we look at each other.

His eyes take my breath away. He takes my breath away. He's so kind and caring and I just wanna...

I feel myself slowly lean in closer to his face..

I come back to my senses and back away. What that fuck was that?!

He gives me a broken smile, luckily I don't think he realized me moving closer just a second ago.

I take my hand away from under her chin and he goes to wipe his remaining tears away. He smiles up at me and I feel my heart flutter. Somethings fucking wrong with me.

"Thank you Kacchan. I really appreciate it."

That nickname again, all I can think about is him and tears start to well up in my eyes. Fucking hell Katsuki stop being a wimp!

Izuku looks at my face and sees the tears that formed before he started to look nervous.

"O-oh I'm sorry I won't call you that. I'm really sorry I shouldn't have done that!"

I shake my head no before wrapping my arms around him and bringing him into a big hug again. He yelps a little from surprise.

"No, don't be sorry. I actually kinda like the nickname alright nerd? I was only crying cause of something else.." I trail off and close my eyes. I hear him giggle a little.

"Alright Kacchan. I like the nickname too." I smile slightly and hold his hips with my hands. Ugh I don't know why this nerd makes me so happy.

He yawns a bit and brings his head to my chest to rest it there. I lay both of us down to snuggle on the bed.

My arms are wrapped around his waist and my head is on top of his messy curls. He has his head resting on my chest and his arms are in front of him.

He lazily place one of his legs on top of me and I smile. He really is a cuddly nerd.

But then again..

I don't mind cuddling either. ♡︎

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