Wrapped by the Cold Memories

XI. Someone Like Me

Months passed at bakasyon na rin. Hindi na muling nagparamdam ang pangalang Montero sa akin na laking pinapagpasalamat ko. Because of my course shifting madadagdagan pa ng isang taon ang pag-aaral ko para mapunan ang mga namiss na subjects.
Sa loob ng mga buwang yon ay wala akong inisip kundi ang tapusin ang pag-aaral ko.

His last words did lingered on my mind pero hindi ganoon katagal na hahayaan kong pati pag-aaral ko ay masira.

Ricky helped us in the company but that doesn’t mean he’ll manage it forever. Tuwing bakasyon ay wala akong ginawa kundi ang gamitin ang panahong yun para matuto ng mga dapat kong malaman sa kompanya at paano ito patatakbuhin.

I started knowing every position and its importance and role to the company so that I’ll know its worth. Nagsimula sa pinakamababang posisyon, it was very hard. The first days of training are like hell and I almost gave up but I keep on telling myself that this was the company that my father loved. I’ll do anything to protect it.

My phone beeped as I read a magazine kaya naman binaba ko muna ito upang tingnan kung kanino galing ang mensahe. It was from Ricky. I slid the screen up and opened the message. My brows furrowed a bit from what I’ve read. Do I need to?

:We’re invited to Mrs. Montero’s birthday. I can’t go cause I’m currently abroad fixing some problems in my company. Hope you’ll go to avoid false interpretations.

We don’t really need to go. Kasi kahit naman anong gawin naming, umattend man ako o hindi, talagang magkaaway na ang kompanya namin.
I fixed my attention to the phone to compose a reply.

:I don’t really need to. I don’t have time to fix my attitude towards them. It’s like going to hell, Ricky. Everyone will understand why we can’t attend the party.

I sighed and click the send button bago nilapag ito sa tabing mesa. I stared at the blue sea water in front of me, shining like it has some glitters on it because of the reflection of the sun. Unti-unting lumulubog ang araw kasabay ng pagkulay kahel nito sa langit. The white sand darkened a bit and memories came flashing through my mind without me knowing it.

I stood up and take a walk with a summer hat in my head and a black swim wear. I wanted to take a dip but my head is filled with different kinds of thoughts. Iniling ko ang ulo ko para mawala ang mga ala-alang pilit binabangungot ang kasalukuyan. I stared at the sea for a few seconds before I turned to go back to my room.

Agad na kumalat sa media ang hindi namin pag-attend sa birthday ng Ginang na Montero. It caused a huge stir on the people supporting both sides but the main characters of the event remained silent and let the people judge the situation.

Ganon din naman ako at ang aming pamilya. Hindi na kami nag-abalang magpaliwanag kasi kahit anong sabihin namin ay hahanapan parin yun ng butas ng mga tao para gumawa ng issue. Days moved quickly. Then, days became months, months became years.

I’m now doing my internship in Romez Hospital wearing my very own white nurse uniform. I can’t help but to feel proud of what I’ve reached. I know I still have nothing but this step is a huge deal for me. It makes me feel that despite of what had happened, I managed to get up and fix myself.

It’s new, yes. But that doesn’t mean I threw the old one. The old Calistancia is still there but that was just to remind of the path that I should take.

Kalahati na ng pamana ng kompanya ay nailipat na sa pangalan ko. Umaattend na rin ako ng mga business gatherings at social events. Unti-unti ay binubuo ko ang pangalan ko na dati kong sinira para sa isang lalaki.

The pain is still there and the sadness is still evident in my eyes as I lye the flowers on the white marble engraved in the hill, named Bernardo De Leon.