He never Cried (ASHLEY 8) ☑

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

They say time heals every wound, time helps... well I think it does and at the same time not. I've been away from Manila for almost five years, but then everytime I'll remember what happened to me back then, it still hurts, and I know the pain  will not leave me any sooner, it will stay longer, and I even think that it will never ever leave.

I was too drown, too in love with the person that can't be mine even if I'll sacrifice my own life. Well, I did. My life circulated to him before. Masaya ako kapag napapasaya ko siya, at kung hindi naman mas malala pa ang nararamdaman ko. Parang nakadepende sa kaniya ang lahat sa akin.

I just realized that my feelings for Abraham before was not healthy, it's way too selfish and almost toxic. I forgot to love myself while loving Abraham, it's not right.

My emotions, depends on how Abraham feels, which is another mistake. You shouldn't lose yourself when you love, in fact you should found the real you.

Habang tumatagal, ay mas dumarami ang mga bagay na nare-realize ko. At mas napapatanuyan kong tama ang naging desisyon kong lumayo. The process is not easy, it's too painful and difficult, but I know it'll be over soon. Hindi pa man ngayon, pero alam ko, mawawala rin tung nararamdaman ko para kay Abraham.

One day, I won't be needing to beg and play dumb for someone. One day I will be someone's everything, without me trying.

"Mamam!"

A smile automatically crept into my lips the moment I entered the house, kaagad kong kinarga si Lex na tumakbo papunta sa akin pagkapasok ko palang. I kissed Lex's cheeks, na may kasamang panggigil.

"How's my baby? Did you made friends with someone today, huh?" I softly asked as I walk our way to the living room.

Medyo mabigat narin si Lex, nakakangawit na ng mga braso. He's a chubby four years old kid. Kulot ang buhok niya, his lips are a bit pouty, round fluffy cheeks, and brown almond eyes.

Umupo na ako sa single seater couch at pinakandong sa akin si Lex. He pouted and hugged my waist. What a clingy kid.

"Ma-mamam!" He blurted.

Natawa naman ako dahil sa ka-cutan niya, I hugged him tighter and kissed his head.

"How's school, my baby Lex?" Tanong ko pa.

Bahagya siyang tumingala. "Friends! Two friends, Mamam!"

He's a kindergarten now, hindi siya palakaibigan kaya medyo worried ako. But upon hearing that he got two friends from him, I feel more relieved and glad.

Naiiwan si Lex dito sa bahay kasama ang Nanny niya netong mga nakaraang linggo, may bagong project kasi ako kasama parin sila Cian at Gaj. And thankfully, dito lang din si Davao ang project na iyon, at malapit lang sa bahay.

Since nakauwi na ako, ang Nanny ni Lex ang nagluto ng hapunan samantalang ako naman na ang bahala kay Lex. Pinaliguan ko siya, binihisan, pinakain pagkatapos ay pinatulog na. Sakto namang pagkababa ko ay ang pagpasok ni Laxus.

He looks tired, but he still flashed me a genuine smile. Ngumiti rin ako pabalik at lumapit na sa kaniya, he kissed my cheek at ganoon din ang ginawa ko.