He never Cried (ASHLEY 8) ☑

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Despite of the pain, I know I still love him. I do... so much.

Marami siguro ang hindi magugustuhan ang esturya ng buhay ko dahil para sa kanila ay puro kalandian lang ang iniisip ko. Actually, I don't want this kind of feelings, ayaw kong makaramdam ng ganito. I should be enjoying my youth, and not like this.

I shouldn't cry over such pathetic thing, over that guy. I am too young to experience heartbreak. I am too young for this. And I know I don't deserve this.

Pero kahit na kasi pilitin ko ang sarili kong wag masaktan, nasasaktan ako. Kasi nagmamahal ako eh. Love is really unpredictable, you won't know when it'll attack you. And if it does attack, there will be no way out anymore.

"Heart, nag-away ba kayo ng parents mo dahil sa akin?" Nag-aalalang saad ni Laxus nang maabutan niya ako sa hallway.

I stopped from walking and gave him my full attention. Naka school uniform ako, not the uniform Abraham told me to wear, I am wearing the usual one, the original.

While Laxus is wearing his basketball uniform, malapit na daw kasi ang bago nilang laban. They always win, I mean they don't lose that much. This year ay wala pa silang talo.

"Hindi naman, okay na kami nila Mommy." Nagpilit ako ng ngiti pagkatapos.

He don't look convinced. He arched his brow and eyed me suspiciously.

"Really? So why are your eyes puffy? Umiyak ka diba? What's the problem then?" He sounded so sure.

I averted my gaze to the floor and played my fingers. I am always thankful to have friends like them, but for now, I want them to not care about me, I want them to pretend that they aren't concern. Ayaw kong mag-explain, dahil nakakapagod.

"Wala lang, I've read a book, a tragic one. You know I should be the one who's apologizing here, I'm sorry, my Mom was so rude to you the other day."

"It's fine, I didn't take it seriously, ikaw? Are you fine?"

Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga at buong tapang na sinalubong ang kaniyang mapanuring mga mata. I remained stoic and composed, even though I badly want to cry again, hug him, and just tell him how hurt I am, tell him what's wrong, tell him everything... but I didn't, of course.

May praktis siya, hindi ko dapat siya inaabala ngayon. He should focus on his game, para manalo sila ulit. He wanted to be the MVP, and I know he will be. He's a great player.

"O-okay lang ako, hindi lang talaga ako makaget-over sa nabasa ko, masyado akong nadala sa story. Sige na, baka hinahanap ka na ng coach mo." Pagtataboy ko sa kaniya.

Tinitigan niya pa ako saglit saka siya bumuntong hininga. "Are you sure? If you want to talk about it, I am more than willing to-"

"Wala nga, kulit, sige na alis na. May pasok din ako." Sabi ko pa habang pigil na pigil sa sariling luha.

Napailing-iling siya. "Mag-uusap tayo mamaya, hmm? Let's talk about your problem, we'll fix that. See you."

Lumapit siya sa akin at ginawaran ako ng halik sa pisnge saka siya tuluyang umalis. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang feelings sa akin ni Laxus, but I hope it's not more than a love between friends. I don't want to lose him, both him and Cedric.