ambrosial

all apologies

like glass, you broke me into a million pieces.
i fell and fell, till i finally shattered.

yet, i still held up those pearlescent shards of glass,
carefully scrutinizing the anatomy of my heart.
all those years, i had only known you.
you consumed so much of me,
that now my own body felt foreign to me
without your intoxicating poison.

your name was etched into the glass walls of my heart,
even my valves murmured your name.
my skin had only adorned your bruises,
now without you it feels so empty.

but you were right, i was a fool.
i was a fool for forgetting you didn't have a heart.
all you had in those costal cages were a bouquet of dead flowers,
sprouting from your sphacelus and rotting flesh.

the thing which made my blood boil and my skin burn with fury,
was how i completely forgot myself,
because i was too busy drowning myself in your poison.

i had forgotten about my own blistered heart,
which was crammed into my nacre glazed ribs.
i had forgotten about my skin which yearned to be cleansed of you.

and for that i apologise.
i apologise to my past self, for never having the courage to know her.
for never standing up for her, for letting her bleed to death.
i apologise to the woman who was absolutely
shattered and broken because of my negligence.

i hope that you forgive me.

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A/N
always be kind to yourself :)

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