Private S-x Lessons with Louis Tomlinson

Lesson 33

“Excuse me” I say with a shaky voice.

“Oh I didn’t mean to-” I cut him off.

“I just have to go to the bathroom.” I lie rushing to my room. The tears were heavy and the familiar feeling of missing my father is back. Our family was never the same after he left. He was always such a kind man. He did absolutely nothing to deserve what he got.

I walk towards my dresser and look at the photo of him and I when I was younger. This was the last photo we took before he got really sick.

Before I know it I am crying. I’m crying and hating my mother for ever breaking the promise that she made to us the morning when he passed away. She said that she would love him forever, even if he is no longer here. I can hear my brother and mum argue and it makes me cry harder. It’s times like this where I wish my father was here.

My phone interrupts my crying and I answer it not bothering to check who it is, but I secretly hope its Niall so I can talk to him. I sniffle before talking.

“Hello?” My voice slightly cracks.

“Holly? Baby are you alright?” Louis voice rings through the phone and my heart beats faster. I want him here with me, I miss him.

“No” I say to him.

“Are you okay? Where are you? You aren’t hurt right? Who did this?” He starts rambling out of worry before I cut him off.

“Come to my house please. I’ll explain when you get here.” I say. He agrees before he hangs up. I don’t care if my mum and brother find out. I just want Louis with me.

Louis POV

I am thankful for the short distance between my House and Holly’s and rush there. She sounded so upset over the phone and I hope its not because of me. I look like shit right now since I have refused to get out of bed since we fought that day. I haven’t shaved very much and the only reason I showered this morning was because Lottie wouldn’t stop making stupid comments about me. I’m thankful I did though, I wouldn’t want to see her smelling like pure sweat.

I quickly park in front of her house and am quick to knock on her door. I am caught off guard when her mother of all people answer.

“Louis? This is a bad time right now.” She says in a soft voice. Her makeup is running which is making me wonder what the hell is going on.

“I’m here for Holly, she called me and told me to come over.” I try to tell her. Should I tell her that I am seeing her daughter? Is this the right time to say that?

“Why would she call you? You haven’t spoken since the beginning of summer?” She questions. Shit, what the fuck do I reply to that?

“Just please let me see her. She needs me.” I’m trying to be polite but she’s really getting in the way of me and Holly.

“Alright.” She moves and walk in passing by a man who is clearly distressed and making my way towards Holly’s room. The sight in front of me tugs at my heart. Her tear stained face is lying on the pillow as she holds a small photo frame against her chest.

“Holly?” I say as I close the door behind me, walking to her. She surprises me by hugging me tightly. Missing the warmth she provides me, I hug her back, trying to replace the emptiness that I have been feeling since I last saw her. Its completely ridiculous how much I fucking need her.

“I missed you” She whispers. I take in her words and hold her tighter to my body.

“I missed you too.” I say. We stay in that position for a while before she backs away and wipes her cheeks.

“I’m sorry I  made you come all the way here. I hope you weren’t busy.” She tells me. If I’m being honest, nothing is more important to me than her. Even if I was busy I would have left whatever I was doing if she needed me. I wish she knew that.

“What happened anyway? Does that man I saw outside have anything to do with it?” I ask. If he did something to upset her, I’ll fucking- she interrupts my thoughts.

“Thats Elijah, my mom's new boyfriend. She promised she wouldn’t love anyone after my dad and I’m just shocked. I was okay until he brought up my dad being sick and dying. It just made me really upset. It brought back all the memories I tried so hard to erase.” She says as hot tears fall from her face. I take her into my arms and lay down with her. I remember going to her dads funeral when we were younger. I admired her so much that day. She didn’t shed a single tear unlike the everybody else. Hell, even I cried for her dad. He always played with Todd and I and I guess it was weird seeing him lay there lifeless. Todd was a mess but she composed herself that day. My brave girl.

I kiss her gently, not wanting to use tongue but just wanting to show her that I care for her and that I am here if she needs me.

“I’m sorry about the other day.” I say facing her. I guess now that we were together, it would be a good time to apologize to her.

“I’m sorry too. I wasn’t innocent in all of this. I’m willing to move on if you are.” She says before kissing me. I try kissing her gently but the way her body pushes into me, I know she wants a little more so thats exactly what I do. I cup her face with one hand and trace her tongue, tasting her, and claiming every inch of her mouth. She pulls me closer to her and for a while we just get lost in the kiss that we both have missed out on these past days.

“Excuse me?” I hear none other than her mum and I pull away composing myself. I still didn’t know if Holly wanted her to know about us or not.

“Mum, I was just...Louis is my boyfriend.” She spits out nervously looking at me to say something. What the fuck am I supposed to say to her? She looks at us surprised but I am fucking grateful when she doesn’t decide to blow this whole thing up. The last thing I needed was to say something insulting to her and to ruin things again with Holly.

“You should have told me that before I let him in your room unsupervised with the door closed.” She says letting out a deep breath before looking at the both of us.“Louis, thank you for checking up on my daughter but I need to discuss somethings with Holly. I think its best if you leave now.” She tells me. I listen to her and give Holly a hug muttering goodbye.

“I love you.” I tell her before turning towards her mother.

“I love you” She says as her mother walks me out. I’m ready to walk out the door when she grabs my arm.

“Louis, I expect you to take care of my daughter.” She tells me.

“Of course” I say to her.

“Whatever happened in your past will not repeat itself right?” She asks and my stomach knots. She knows.

I nod unable to form words as she leaves the house.

Fuck. She fucking knows and there is only a short amount of time before Holly finds out too.

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Hiya guys :) Wow so much info in one chapter! I said this chapter would be better and hopefully it was.?.? Anyway, lets all agree to always value Louis in our Hearts because Louis is precious and important and his voice can bring world peace. I love Louis, you love Louis, your grandpa loves Louis. Louis. Louis. Louis.

Bye :)