The Hidden Tears | A BTS Fan Fiction | Book 1 ✔

Chapter 31 : Open Book

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•7 June 2021•

"I broke them Eunjae... My brothers, my parents. My family. I was so foolish to think that they don't love me or need me in their lives" He said, the tears that made their way down his round eyes falling swiftly over his tan skin.

You couldn't help but gulp the lump of emotions formed in your throat. With his gaze still fixed to the sky, not daring to meet your eyes, he spoke again. "I-I know what happened after I fell into coma. Their words, their cries, my mom's pleadings, I heard it all and it till date haunts me at nights. I was selfish to just end it all without thinking about them." He cried, lower lip quivering, while his eyes were hooded by his chocolate brown bangs.

Diverting your eyes from his broken form, you leaned your back on the concrete wall, sitting beside the boy in a way that your shoulders slightly touched his. Drawing a shaky breathe you tried your best not to cry, pulling yourself together, and said the words you knew he needed the most.

"Sometimes we can't help but do things we never intend to Taehyung. But no matter how much we blame ourselves for that, what's once done can't be corrected. In actual world there's no time machine to step back in the past and redo our actions. Life is never a perfect story book and we should never expect it to be one too. Stop blaming yourself for something that's done, something that has already caused a harm." You whispered the last words turning towards him, looking for his gaze to meet yours and when it did, you swear you saw the most innocent eyes ever.

Not the one's which he showed to the world, not those blank and dull eyes. No! In those round nut brown eyes you saw the harmless broken boy looking for his medicine, his cure. In those he held the emotions which he only showed to his brothers, the look that can make one feel home.

"I'm sorry... " He breathed out once again in his calm yet bothered voice. The tears once again dwelling up in his eyes as he tried to move his lips in order to speak further, but nothing came out. He was too caught up in emotions to form a proper sentence, to express how much guilty and sorry he is for his actions towards the girl who's sitting here in front on his, the girl who saved him from repeating the same mistake from past once again.

Passing him a small comforting smile, you leaned forward, wiping off his tears with your gentle touch while brushing off the bangs that fell over his forehead and then ruffled his chocolate locks. The action caught him off-guard but he was quick to pull a smile on his face. No! Not just any smile but one that had power to lift up anyone's mood, the one in which his lips perfectly align along his teeth forming a box like structure. His contagious boxy smile.

"You look good while smiling Taehyung. I swear you should stop hiding it behind your evil grin. It sacred me so much the day I first met you... " You said, your voice turning into a cute and nagging on, as your cherry lips unconsciously turned into a pout.

Chuckling at your sudden change in personality, he stood over his two feet, helping you to do the same, he walked over to the roof edge, leaning his arms over the railing and stood there looking at the sun playing hide and seek with the earth.

He couldn't help but relate it to his own life. His happiness is like a sun too, always trying to hide away from him, the cloud-like guilt and anger preventing him from looking at it. But this time he swore that no matter how much these clouds of darkness try to shield his sun, his happiness, he won't fall. He would wait. Wait till the clouds fade away and the bright soothing rays of the sun hit him with all the tenderness.
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