rough start. 🥀

part 8: she loves him 💥

( i put one of my fave songs up there listen if you want!) ✨

still mattheos pov:

the best kiss i've ever had, well.. other than her i'd never actually kissed anyone. or ever had sex, i'd never wanted anyone else other than her but i knew she was great, i craved her for un-natural reasons. i felt as though i was sinking if her touch was not felt by me.

god she's fucking gorgeous. oh how i will tell everyone, she was mine. i knew she was quite popular. and she always had boys drooling over her, but now she's with me i can protect her from them. over the week i spent without her, i observed her. who she hung around with.. normal stuff, but mainly her actions. even though she had many friends she was still quite quiet. liked to keep to herself, probably many secrets. i want to find out more

she seemed mysterious.

i'm still not over how she was mine, she loved... me. she's obsessed, will do anything for me. and she will want me all the time. the feeling of knowing i had her so easily almost made me weak inside.

"we should sit bubs" she mentioned holding my hand and dragging me towards one seat, i sit and pull her onto my lap. she turns round wrapping her legs round my waist along with her arms trailing around my neck, she buries her head in my chest snuggling into me
"i love you mattheo" utter shock came from the slytherin table we were currently sat at. it waved over to all the tables in the great hall to end with a crowd of gossip. no one will expect this..

"i love you more y/n" i kiss her head. emphasising my actions as everyone watched us. they were jealous, i could see it in almost every guys eyes. wow how utterly stupid can they be. thinking she'd fall for someone like them.

after a few minutes of staring she turns around and we both start eating, we were having a random conversation when i hear a crying boy walk behind us....

draco s pov:
before the great hall

me pansy and blaise were sat in the Slytherin common room, an arm wrapped round pansys waist while i sat alone opposite them. i'd usually sit with y/n..talking about how our own friend could betray us like that
"i- just don't understand, mattheo? it makes no sense! i thought she liked you Draco..." pansy exclaims at the end softening up to ease any tension that was built during the conversation
"listen mate i know you li-" blaise gets interrupted
"just stop, please i don't want to hear it. i don't understand!" i almost shout, i just can't believe she didn't like me back.

i sit there with old memories filling my mind, me and her. flirting with each other. i was chasing her after she stole my shoe and ran away with it. i catch up to her and i pick her up. i'd run to my dorm and throw her on my bed then jump on top of her and cuddle her to sleep. i didn't know how long i zoned out for but i come back to reality when blaise snaps his fingers in front of my face.

"uh yeah right sorry." i speak ashamed, how can i win her back?
"let's go to the great hall, it's time for breakfast" pansy speaks up and walks towards the great hall. blaise instinctively follows her and hugs her while they walk. and there i am, walking in the back. without her, it didn't feel normal, something had to be wrong
(stfu draco no one feels sorry for you🤪💀)

we all get to the main hall and sit down, blaise and pansy seemed alright with the situation. i clearly wasn't (alright alright we understand cotton stick 🤡🤚) i felt awful. sick to my stomach, i always thought she would lose her virginity to me, not h- him.

i want to know who sent her that note, it wasn't any of us. and who would want her all to them self? even her friends weren't allowed her
(why's he being such a blonde today ghee) i was going to find out. and i wanted her, she made me feel happy. even though she didn't like me back i didn't mind, because i liked her.

they both walked in... they were holding hands.. it shattered me completely, i thought she regretted it why would she do this to me.
y/n looked happy and sweet while mattheo stood there smirking at everyone, knowing he won the prize. what a dick. 

pansy and blaise quickly notice them both and look towards me. i knew they were going to speak but i didn't want to hear it, i ran towards her with them following me
"y/n please we promise we never wrote the letter we are your friends!" i say begging for her back
pansy then says
"w-why are you with him?" oh lord this will not end well.

"well why wouldn't she be with me huh, after all she is MY girlfriend" mattheo stated loudly.
"y/n i know you think we sent the letter but why would you do this?! he is evil, he's going to hurt you and you know it. you can't just go mad after-
"STOP IT! i love him, i'm only going mad because i realised my feelings for him. and the letter you all sent doesn't matter to me. i could never leave him"

why is she defending him? and there relationship. how can she love him!? it made me depressed. it felt as though a chunk of my heart had been ripped out my chest. (dramatic much) i felt the tears building up in my eyes, but i wouldn't let them fall. she's making a mistake.

they.. kiss

in front of everyone.

i wish it were me.

i run back to the table, trying to avoid tears. pansy and blaise follow automatically. and ask if i'm okay. well of course in not okay. i sigh and put my head on the desk.. i just wanted to know why she never loved me. why she chose him. she didn't even know, i always thought she'd end up with me. not all dreams can come true. but you can bring them into real life...

she sits with him, close enough for eye distance. she cuddles into him and he holds her tightly like i thought i always would
"i love you mattheo" everytime i hear it, it seems to break me down more.

"i love you too y/n" he kissed her head.
i thought he couldn't love?! i don't want this to happen. without noticing the tears streamed down my face. i walk up to them both and start to talk to y/n
"y/n i don't understand! why didn't you love me! i want to know why you didn't love m-" i couldn't finish my sentence i got quieter and quieter as i spoke. i burst out in tears. i didn't care i wanted to know what was wrong with me...

"y/n please tell me" i whisper, sobbing underneath my breath
"i love him, i love him so much" they quickly kiss again. which makes me lose my shit
"STOP IT, HOW DO YOU LOVE HIM! BE WITH ME, please y/n i-

mattheo puts y/n back on the chair and stands up to me

"are you trying to ruin our relationship." it was sharp, i gulp while he was looking at me, he's really tall. and i've seen him fight, i should go before i get hurt

i try leave but he grabs my shoulder. turning me round, he grabs my collar making me face him
"no answer? wouldn't expect that from a malfoy" he grins before chuckling
he punches me straight in the face. i almost feel like being unconscious. he continues punching me, i can't do anything. he's too strong.

why wasn't she helping me, why wasn't y/n defending me....

urgh draco shush we finna fall in love with mr riddle over hear. what will happen to draco? what will draco do to find out what is really going on. dotn forget to vote lysm! ✨🥰🥀🖤