Atlantis | mcyt

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TWs: Panic attacks, Blood, Cuts, Mentions of mental Abuse, mentions of starving yourself

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hiddenleaf|@plant 
paniking. 

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Liked by: tubbolive, smajor1995 and 9,014 others 

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Scott Smajor|@smajor1995 
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im proud of you woodcracker
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hiddenleaf|@plant
replying to @plant and @smajor1995
SCOTT IM PANIKNG SCOTT
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 Scott Smajor|@smajor1995
replying to @plant and @smajor1995
congrats woodcracker!
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hiddenleaf|@plant
replying to @plant and @smajor1995
WTFDOYYOUMEANIMONTHEVERGEOFAMENTALBREAKDOWNSCOTT
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Tubbo|@TubboLive
replying to @plant
:D
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hiddenleaf|@plant

replying to @ plant and @TubboLive
TUBBO I LOVE YOU BUT WHY, IM GOING TO CRY
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Tubbo|@TubboLive
replying to @plant and @TubboLive
WHY CRY, WHEN HAPPY!
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hiddenleaf|@plant
replying to @plant and @Tubbo Live
PLEASE TUBBO I CANT DEAL WITH 9,000 MORE PEOPLE FOLLOWING ME AT ONCE
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mello|@mellon
replying to @plant
dear im so happy for you!
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hiddenleaf|@plant
replying to @mellon and @plant
thank you mum but that did nothing for me(ily tho)
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mello|@mellon
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ilyt
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hiddenleaf|@plant
replying to @plant and @mellon
:D
🌱
Her joking tone on twitter was fake.

She was actually having a mental breakdown. 

Immediately after the stream she collapsed with exhaustion and trudged down the hall to the shower. She was so overcome with emotion that it felt uncomfortable to do anything else at the moment but cry.  

She heaved over, sobbed and chocked on her tears. She couldn't deal with this right now:

Her eating habits were shit, her parents were neglectful, she wasn't ready for a big fan base. 

Leaf spiraled down the drain of having a big fan base.  They would be more needy, more demanding. They would be so much mere pressure. 

She wold break under it. She would snap and split She would be so drained that she would become a cow for content. She wasn't ready for that. She wasn't ready to have 8'000 eyes on her at all times. 

She was anxious, tired and fucking depressed all the time. Her giggly little persona was a mask, and it had cracks.  

But she wouldn't shatter, She couldn't let down her dear new ferns. 

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Suck it up. suck it up and just stop. why are you crying. this is an amazing opportunity

Just deal with it Leaf, your well being doesn't matter, there are people suffering from much more than you. Stop pretending like this is the worst thing in the world. Your so fucking selfish. you're making more money and your complaining? your doing the thing you love and you're crying about it? Suck it up.   

Stop complaining, that's what the voices said, suck it up. you're not special. She believed them, they were right. 

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Leaf was crying for hours. She was in shambles, breaking apart piece by piece with nobody to pick her up. Its not like she could call up the rich snotty assholes who her parents had forced to be with.