𝐑𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

𝟏𝟕.

"I can't get you outta my fucking head." He cussed crashing his lips onto mine

"Stop you're drunk," I said when I tasted the alcohol on his lips

"What are you doing?" I said pushing him away when he started placing kisses on my jaw and chest

"Shut up." He mumbled sucking on my neck harder and making me moan loudly

"Shit Mmh." I moaned when he started to suck on my sore nipples

"F-fucc." I cried and he lifted me in the air placing me on my back softly

"Shh." He whispered pushing inside of me

"I-jade!" I cried when he hit my spot over and over again, I felt incredible

"Fuck." He groaned pushing his head into my neck

"F-faster!" I cried wrapping my arms around him
"Shit!" He groaned speeding up and hitting my spot with every single thrust

"You feel amazing Niyah." He whispered pushing in and out of me

"Slow down," I whispered feeling myself about to go over the edge

"Shut up." He growled speeding up and making me cry out with each thrust

"I-I love you!" I cried
"I love you too."

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠.

"What happened last night was wrong," I whispered as we lay in my bed together

"I don't care." He mumbled

"But you don't love me Jade it's the excitement of everything because we both know this is wrong." I was hoping he'd stop me but deep down I knew that the only thing between us was sex

"You don't know how I feel." He mumbled annoyed but his answer told me everything I needed to know when he didn't deny it

"I knew it," I whispered pushing him away from me

"What's your issue?" He snapped pulling me back towards him

"You, I won't play second best to her I'm sorry but I won't." I snapped

"Who said you were second best?"
"You don't mean that," I said trying not to smile

"I'm not playing you know I like you." He said with a smirk kissing my neck

"Then why are you keeping her around?"
"Because I'm gonna need her soon." I was trying so hard not to cave

"It's our secret" he continued kissing my lips and I kissed him back

"I'm your number one?"
"Always have been baby."  He smiled kissing me

"Shit." He groaned when he slid into me making me gasp out of surprise

"I-I love you, Jade." I moaned

"I love you too... you're better than her." He groaned making me get even wet

"Faster!" I cried. I don't care about that bitch he's mine and that's all that matters

𝐀 𝐅𝐞𝐰 𝐃𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐋𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫.
𝐄𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐑𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐬

Love is what you make it
I'll give you my heart if you promise you
I won't break it.
I'mma keep it real with everyone, it ain't no fakin'
I was trying to give it to you,
you were trying to take it

I laid in bed humming the words to trenches as I thought deeply about my relationship with Jade yes I loved him but I knew that he didn't love me he made that clear and god knows I was tired of the disrespect, constantly being called out of my name by girls I didn't even know especially Shaniyah, him lying to my face and acting as if I was crazy you name it I was tired of it

"You're so stupid.. so fucking stupid" I screamed louder kicking my legs into the air and trying to find a sense of relief but none came

Eliana: "Are you busy?" I texted him
Ace: "No." he texted back and I was about to call him. But my phone started ringing and when I looked at the contact I saw that it was him

"What's up?"
"I think we should break up."

"Stop playing."

"I'm not playing I'm tired and I'm far too young to be dealing with this." I loved Jade but we had no history nothing held us together but my dumb ass

"What I do now?" He asked annoyed
"What haven't you done." I'm allowed to be petty

"Cut the fucking attitude." He snapped making me soften my voice and cut most of my attitude out of my tone

"Sorry," I mumbled

"What did I do Elle?"
"You cheated and I know you continue to cheat."

"What you talking about man, I can't catch a fucking break ." He mumbled

"I'm not ready nor am I willing to be with you knowing you have a child that was made out of your mistakes that affect our relationship."

"I've apologised, I've changed what else do you want?" He barked like I was the one who ruined us

"You haven't changed! And I can't anymore Jade I cannot and will not stand by you when you cheat on me repeatedly with that whore and allow her and so many other women to disrespect me because you allow it! You contribute to it by continuously sleeping with her!" I needed to let this anger out because god knows it was breaking me

"Don't call her that."
"Wow.. fuck you" I cried feeling my heart ache

"I'm sorry."
"Stop it! Okay, fucking stop saying sorry if you won't change for the better!"

"I love you."

"No you love the idea of me, the idea of having a fool stand behind you through everything even though it is breaking them apart but you love that well guess what Jade I wish she breaks your heart I wish she's the reason you can't sleep at night and I wish she hurts you a hundred times more than what you've done to me because she won't last she'll leave you eventually," I screamed into the phone

"I'm sorry Eliana." He whispered sounding defeated

"You didn't deserve me."
"You're right." He said agreeing and that pissed me off even more

"She'll break your heart one day," I said hanging up the phone feeling empty

𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐎𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫? 🖤

Y'all like Shaniyah or...
I feel like Eliana is just insecure and needs to learn to love herself, she's so young and lost.
How do feel about this book in general?