i used to at least kinda think i was a boy. well, sort of. i mean, that was what everyone else thought.
i'd never told anyone i really, really felt like a girl.
i tried to hide my true self as best i could.
and i thought nobody knew.
turns out, i was wrong about that, too.
for me, it was just always understood that boys do boys things and girls do girl things, and that was that.
i don't know who taught me that - probably my parents.
i don't know who taught them that - probably theirs.
but i was different, and i knew that just like i knew i had to hide that.
i knew it so hard that i went out of my way to avoid being found out.
no one could know my secret, ever.
sometimes when my sister was at work i would sneak into her room.
okay, fine, maybe it was all the time.
i would pick out something to wear, like i would if i were born a girl in this house.
i half-wished she would come home early one day and just find me there... and just know.
but anytime i heard a noise i would hide in the closet and hurriedly put boy clothes back on.
you could say i spent a lot of time in the closet.
and then in one single day, one fell swoop, everything changed, and forever.
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first easter (first everything)
ChickLitencouraged by her family's suddenly approving mindset, a young transgirl prepares for her first easter as herself... and her first crush, first date, first... first... well, first everything :] ***** ***** {as soon as it seemed to this trans teen li...