Crossing the Lines

THIRTY TWO

Vinnie walked back inside, leaving me on the porch. I felt like I couldn't breathe. He just lost his best friend, he shouldn't be alone. Regardless that Annika, who I was now going to kill, betrayed us, she was right. I wouldn't give up on Ace. Whenever he decided to come out of hiding, I would keep trying to break through to him.

"Hey." Thea sighed, walking onto the porch. She was rubbing her wrist and I noticed red marks on them, like she'd tried to catch a whip. Sarah.

"How is she?"

"Not good."

"Are you okay?"

"I was friends with Ben, but we were never really close. I'm sad, definitely shocked. I think right now I'm just worried about Sarah and the Capos."

"I got the first aid kit." Leo says, walking on to the porch with a little box.

"I should probably go talk to her." I sigh, looking back into the house.

"Be careful, I don't think you're gonna get through to her right now." Thea tells me as she goes to sit on the porch swing with Leo.

I walked inside and ran to Ace and I's room, grabbing one of my knives. I then went to Sarah's door. I stood in the hallway for at least five minutes, debating on what to do. I don't know if I'm more scared of her or the whip she has right now. Slowly, I open the door and walk into the dark room.

"Sarah?" I ask softly. 

I can't see anything, but I wince when I feel a sharp burn hit my arm. Before she can pull it back, I grab the whip and cut it with my knife. She gasps when she realized what I did. I can make out the bed in front of me and gently lay my knife on the floor, out of her reach, before slowly crawling on the bed.

"Sarah." I feel around until I finally bump her. She was curled up in a ball in the corner of the bed.

"Leave." Is all she says. It wasn't soft or sad. It was feral and violent. A warning.

"No, I'm not leaving you alone right now."

"Hannah, leave. I won't tell you again."

"Sarah, no." I tell her sternly. 

I can barely see her but she immediately pounced on my, trying to attack me. She was punching and clawing and I did my best to fight her off. Eventually, I caught her fist. She tried to use her body and kick me off the bed but I climbed on top of her, locking her legs between mine. She tried to get out of my grasp a few more times before she stopped. As soon as she stopped, the tears started.

"Hey." I said softly as I slowly loosened my grip on her.

"He's gone..." She cried.

"We don't know that." She nodded her head as I climbed off of her.

"Th-they sent...a picture...." She said as she curled back up into a ball.

"A picture?"

"H-his body."

"Oh my gosh..." I thought he was kidnapped, that Jack was lying. 

"I was...so mean...to him." She said in-between breaths.

"You forgave him."

"I was too late. I was too late." She kept mumbling. "If I had forgiven him sooner, known about the mission sooner, I would've had more time to convince him not to go. I-I had a bad feeling about it, I was literally sick over him going."

"Sarah, there was nothing you could've done. You know he still would've gone." She was silent again, all I could hear were sniffles.

"Luca..." She whispered.

"Luca?"

"We always talked about what our future would be like. I never really wanted kids, but he did. He always talked about us getting married and having a baby boy. Luca. He wanted a baby boy named Luca."

"That's a beautiful name."

"It is. Whenever we were going through tough times, especially lately with the war, he would always talk about it. He would tell me to think of us growing old together, think of us watching Luca grow up, or debating on whether or not Luca should have another sibling.

"Now, I can't have either of them. I can't grow old with the man I love, Hannah. I can't get married and one day have a baby boy. Hannah, what do I do?! We had our whole future planned out and, just like that, he's gone. He and everything we've planned is just gone." 

There's nothing I could say right now. I could never imagine the pain she's feeling. I scoot next to her and wrap my arms around her. She immediately collapses into me, shaking with tears. My best friends whole world just came crashing down and I don't know what to do other than be here for her.

"It hu-hurts, Hannah...It fucking hurts...make it stop..."

"I'm sorry, love, I wish I could." I say softly, rubbing her head.

"How do I live without him? He saved me, he gave my life purpose. How do I go on? I have nothing anymore. Hannah, I don't want to be here. I can't live in a world where he isn't."

"You take it day by day, Sarah. You take it day by day and you don't go through it alone."

"You wanna know the ironic part about all of this? The one person that I want to talk to and to comfort me right now is the one that is no longer here."

I hugged her tighter, just trying to be there for her in anyway I can.

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Im ngl this chapter made me tear up :(( Comment and Vote!