Make me the villain
Make me your pain
Tell them your story
Give me all the blame
Cry for me in the shower
I could've been the hero had I tried harder
You gave me pass after pass
You gave me love that you thought would last
Told to save my composure
You say you saw the real me
Overreactive and erratic
the stigmatization of a mental disease
So to you I'm the villain
The root of all fear
I cast weapons of danger
Play the victim and call wolf when you're near
Thought I was playing
Leaving so soon
Say I love you but say it's over between me and you
So tell them I'm the villain
I'm the one who blocked
Unfollowed a year prior yet still carried you in my heart and thoughts
Compulsive behavior was thinking of you
Questioning your motives
A guy who hit on girls younger than you
Freshmen and seniors are not a good match
Sorry you desperate over me made me think twice about the good of our past
I'm still in high school
I still need over a year
Sorry not wanting to go in car rides makes me crazy and carry irrational fear
Tell them how I hurt you
How you thought I could be the one
The one who agreed with you on everything because her values were not yet strong
Rolled with the punches
Even the badly timed ones
Just for a moment of being with you
because you said you were my #1
Tell them how I hurt you
Time and time again
Oh wait! THAT WAS YOU
But what does it matter, you'll never tell them
How bad I fell
How hopeless I became
That once again someone I loved left me
That only I am ever to blame
That liking you was weird
That I'd be better off avoiding you
That I should leave you to be and try to fix myself up off in a corner
The anxiety that attacked when I saw your face in the halls
Hallucinations that followed
Believing I heard you call
But I'm the villain
So no one must know
Only I hurt you so
By saying how much I cherished you back then and because of that we should let each other go
So hush hush about my feelings
About my own existential dread
My background in running and eating and how my sister had just left
So hush hush about my feelings
The nights I could not sleep
The days I laid awake dreaming
of what we could be
But I am the villain
Every story needs one
I'm the villain in your book
The one with devil horns and a tail you draw on
The one with the issues
Had to go back to therapy again
Thank god I left you
Be glad I didn't rope you back in
Written on: April 2, 2021
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☆Faith☆ (A Series Of Poems)
PoetryJust a bunch of poems, short stories, and whatever other tidbits I'd like to add. {Updated whenever I have strong emotions} Originally started sometime in 2017 Written by a teenager. Titles with a (TW) mean that a serious topic is being addressed, s...
