Chapter 22. Doubts
"Ano ba talaga ang nangyayari Duke? Because I swear nasa punto na ako ng kabaliwan!" I said enough na makita niya ang frustrations ko. Ano ba ang nangyayari?
"Alex...please...just please calm down." He pleaded. It just surprise me na kahit anung sinasabi niya para tumigil ako sadyang hindi ko lang talaga mapigil.
"Duke!" I yelled at him. Buti na lang wala masyadong tao sa paligid. Kung hindi siguradong kinatok na kami ng gwardiya.
After the Jollibee incident pinilit niya akung isakay sa sasakyan niya tapos he drove off hangang sa mapadpad kami dito, sa kawalan sa gitna ng gabi.
"Trust me Alex, just for once trust me. Whatever is happening now, just trust me, this is for the better." He said calmly na para bang akala niya nababaliw na ako.
"Then tell me Duke, is there something I should be worried about," I managed to keep myself calm while saying those words, pero may naalala na naman ako then suddenly I felt like shouting again, "...other than my boyfriend's doctor is working on a god damn fast food chain!!!??"
I shouted at the top of my lungs na mapatahimik siya...at ako while looking at each other.
Seconds passed until he sighed of defeat. Kahit ako rin napagod na.
I just shut up and tried na hindi maiyak. Hindi ko na mai-digest ang mga nangyayari. Is this even for real?
"I keep telling you a while ago to trust me," he spoke so calm that broke the silence, "...I'm sorry kung hindi ganun kadali yun. I've been gone for too long para ibalik yung...trust..."
TRUST, I still trust Duke. Kahit na sa tagal ng panahon na hindi kami nagkita, kahit na hindi kami nag-usap. Nothing has changed. But trusting him in this situation...hindi ko alam. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung sino pang pagkakatiwalaan ko.
"Of course I tr--"
"You know I tried to tell you dati pa that a relationship with my brother will just won't work..." he said seriously. Napaisip ako, oo nga, dati pa. Matigas lang talaga ang ulo ko, pero ano bang mali sa amin ni Dave na parang lagi na lang hindi pwede, "...you just keep on hurting yourself all over and over again..." it's all worth it I convinced myself, hindi ko na maalala kung kelan pa ba ang huling araw na nag seryoso si Duke, ngayon lang, "...but you just keep on coming back. Masochista ka ba?" he looked at me and chuckled.
I just can't find the words to speak now. Kung kanina parang sasabog ako, ngayon para na akung lantang gulay. Kalmado lang siya na parang kanina pa sinasalo ang mga bullet na galing rin sakin.
"I-I...I-I'm..sorry." I said out of nowhere. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ako nagso-sorry. But I just felt that I have to say it.
"For what?" Umiling-iling lang siya, "...just trust me on this Alex. Okay? Go back to Prince and don't tell him what happened, okay? I'll fix everything."
Hindi ko alam kung sa boses niya lang o sa talagang feeling ko may assurance ang sinabi niya kaya napatango na lang ako.
Hindi ko maintindihan ang sinabi niya. I'll fix everything.
Sino o ano ba ang pinag-uusapan namin? Yung doctor turned into a normal employee ba? Kasi hindi ko na talaga maintindihan!!!
Lagi na lang dahil kay Dave!
Lagi na lang ang problema yung sa'min ni Dave!
Okay naman ako dati!
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