A Part Of It (Avengers)

Chapter 29

"Nothing-" she started and I cut her off,

"Nat, please." I tell her with pleading eyes, I needed to know what was going on in her head,

"I just want you to be careful, I wouldn't want him to hurt you." she said and I understood,

"I understand, and you are right, I have to be careful, it's all new to me, I never had a boyfriend before, never had any kind of boyfriend/girlfriend relationship so you are right I have to be careful." I tell her, I know it wasn't all she was talking about but I think she understood where I was going,

"I just want to look out for you." she tells me taking my hand,

"I really love you girls, I really do, and thank you so much for being here." I tell them, smiling and Wanda smiled too,

"Always." said Nat smiling,

"Always."

"So I should talk to Tony right?" I asked them again, my nerves clearly awaking in my belly,

"Yep!" said Nat popping the 'p',

"Okay then, I will do that." I told them, after that we talked a bit more, overall about Wanda and Vision and how things were going for them, we then talked about Nat and she was really vague about the whole dating and relationship kind of things, but I didn't want to push her, we all talked and talked some more until they also had things to do and I thought it was time to go and see Tony.

"F.R.I.D.A.Y. where is Tony?" I asked the AI, all happy on the inside,

"He is in his lab Miss Jones." I heard her tell me and I chuckled at how well mannered she is.

I made my way out of the room and passed by Day Care to pick Aly up, I hadn't seen her in what felt like ages, and I gave her so many kisses and hugs, she was also really happy to see me. I held her in my arms, and we made our way toward the lab.

"Hey there." I said smiling, as I leaned against the door frame of the lab room with Aly playing with a baby giraffe toy, in my arms. He turned around and a small smile appeared on his face,

"Hey M." he said coming towards me and kissing my cheek,

"What's up?" he asked nonchalantly, and I got a bit confused,

"Well, I, euhm, wanted to talk about what happened earlier." I tell him an embarrassed look all over my face,

"Oh yeah right." he said looking away from me,

"Tony what is going on?" I asked him putting Aly down, sitting her on the floor, I could already feel something was up,

"I don't know," he started, and I already felt the nerves eating me alive,

"What don't you know?" I asked him, my patience running out slowly, I was starting to feel a bit angry at his nonchalance.

"I don't know if I should've kissed you, I mean I loved it of course, but I just don't know, you're so young. I mean it's as if I was kissing Parker." he said blankly,

"Excuse me? Are you actually kidding me?" I asked him, the tone of my voice changing to an angry one,

"Mia, I just need a bit of time, to think about everything, I am sorry." he said and now I was mad,

"Okay, yeah makes sense, you couldn't have thought about it prior of kissing me, before giving me butterflies, before stealing my first ever kiss, oh Tony, what was I thinking." I asked him rhetorically,

"You only want me when you don't have me, now you have me, all of me, I am in, in whatever this was supposed to be, but I guess the kid here, is you." I tell him picking Aly up from the ground,

"I am so sorry M, I really thought it'd be different." he said making me loose my temper on the inside,

"You thought what would be different Tony?" I asked him,

"I don't know." he said scratching the back of his neck, and that's when I lost it, I created a force field around Aly for her not to hear me scream,

"THE HELL YOU DON'T KNOW TONY." I yelled a bit,

"I thought I'd feel something else, and I didn't, I needed to kiss you to know." he said now staring at me, my eyes meeting his once so comforting gaze,

"Well, congratulation Tony, you really are one of the dumbest person on this planet, I never thought you would do that to me! TO USE ME, just to see if you would feel something. That is called using people, I am not a tissue I am not disposable. I am a human being and so help me God one day you will gain common sense and humanity, compassion and respect for the people around you, and no Tony not the money in the world could buy you those qualities. I am profoundly disgusted and saddened." I tell him a single tear sliding down, but those weren't tears of sadness but of angriness.

"As someone I know told me not long ago, allowing yourself to fall in love, is allowing something good to happen and even sometimes something bad that could break your heart. When it does turn out the bad way, never regret, well I am sorry to disappoint the person who told me that, but I do regret! I regret ever thinking of you as someone who will always be by my side. But hey that's what life and experience is for, I am lucky I am 21 I have my whole life in front of me Tony, even thought I may not say so about you." I said, it was cold, it was mean, but I was over with his bull crap, I turned around not allowing him to reply to me and made my way out of the lab.

I tried not to be angry I could feel my powers taking over me but I needed to control them, I ran towards uncle Nick's office which was the closest thing to the lab room, I knocked and entered,

"Mia are you okay?" he asked me,

"Can you please take her for now I have to go , I can't contain my powers." I told him handing him Aly, poor thing didn't understand a thing that was happening,

"Mia your eyes-" he started and I cut him off,

"I know uncle Nick that's why I need to go." I tell him rushing out of his office and out of the compound, I had trouble breathing, I couldn't contain myself anymore. I ran a bit further away from the compound and let out a scream, and my whole body was glowing, I started to float and made my way above the threes,

'Breathe in, breathe out,' I told myself, I was calming down but relieving everything, in my head.

How could someone be this obnoxious, this self centred, HE had to see if HE felt the same, if HE would be okay to be with me, what about me? I am not the egoistical type, at all, I just thought that for such a relationship, you had to be two, and take the two into consideration. Who goes around kissing someone and then says 'you know what? actually I don't want it?'.

Was there even a reason? Maybe I could never be like Pepper his one true love. I was not gonna try and find him excuses so I just made my way towards the same branch as the last time and sat there completely drowned in my thoughts.

The Audacity.