𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐌𝐄 ⌦ 𝐌𝐂𝐘𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

cope - dreamnap

song inspiration: hot rod - dayglow

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one panic attack about losing someone.

another panic attack from a nightmare.

damn, he has it bad for this boy.

...

"maybe, he's not all that in reality?"

"sapnap, i've literally talked to him multiple times. he's the same person inside and out."

...

"you're just a hot rod, dream!"

"sure, but you still love me."

how— when did he know that?

...

the train hit him like a hammer on a nail.

...

it was pouring, and yet dream was still at the junior's door.

"uhm— hey nick—"

"don't."

"it's not about our argument!"

"what's it about then?"

"how do you— uh.. cope with things?"

...

sapnap laid flat on the bathtub, letting the water consume him as it soaked his clothes and hair.

it felt nice.

he did it until he felt like he couldn't breathe anymore.

he leaped up, looking around.

he felt human, and that's what he always will be.

just human.

...

"SAPNAP!"

(highschool au)

- yes, i do this coping mechanism. it's the worst one i do besides joking about game-ending myself, drawing, listening to music, writing, etc.

would contain:

bad coping mechanisms
anxiety/panic attacks
death
suicide
drowning
angst
hurt/comfort
fluff
yelling/arguing
nsfw (blood, suggestive content.)

a/n: no, i don't want to hear you say that i should be nicer to myself and to stay strong. i have narcissistic people do that for me.