L O L I T AHe was dead. No matter what I did, I could never escape my past. Maybe my past was who I genuinely mean to be.
Because it was then, I realized I was just who my ex-boyfriend, Giovanni, sculpted me out to be.
A monster.
You can't get away from who you are meant to be.
A note wrote. I found it on the threshold underneath Sahar's apartment door. I grabbed it before she could see.
My heart dropped and toppled on the ground. It felt as if I sucked the air out of my lungs.
Only one person was going through my brain. One person who knew what I was capable of doing, what I have done.
Giovanni.
•••
The next day, Sahar was nowhere in the bed when I woke up, which meant she went to work. I knew she worked two jobs, so she was at her salon.
I needed a job.
I was going to go to the bookstore. Even though I never got informed on whether or not they would give me the job.
I was walking on the street of the small town, noticing a small cafe. The delicious smell of coffee hot my nose.
I dropped my gaze to the cement sidewalk.
I bumped into someone. I let out a surprised shriek stumbling backwards before nearly tumbling to the ground. I felt huge arms lift me before I could.
I was too focused on the ground—the uneven chips and cracks embedded in the sidewalk. I didn't notice where I was going.
"Sorry, are you okay?"
He ignored me.
"I was paying attention to my feet. I wasn't looking at where I was going. It's all my fault," I apologized profusely.
"Exactly." His harsh voice snapped. I looked up to see the guy who owns the bar Sahar took me to—the bar where we killed someone.
I killed someone.
I swallowed hard before gaining my composure. I squared my shoulders, staring at the man. Sadly I had to look up at him since he was taller than I remember.
He rarely smiled.
I might be able to convince him to give me a job. I needed to show him I could do it. I never stopped until I got what I wanted. My brother hated that part of me.
"Do you want to talk over coffee?" I asked him. My eyes widened when he just turned around and left—ignoring me. Again.
I chased after him. "Is that a yes?" I smiled cheekily.
The stern expression on his face told me to leave him alone, but I continued.
"You know, I know a place that has coffee and fresh cupcakes. I was thinking of going there you could come," I invited the man. "Which reminds me, I don't know much about you. You're not a murderer by any chance, right? I've spent the past year with a murderer, and let me tell; it wasn't the highlight of my year. I missed my graduation. Can you believe that?"
He groaned. I realized I was rambling. What was wrong with me? I never rambled. I also realized I almost slipped up about Giovanni. I closed my mouth grounded my teeth together to stop talking. It didn't work.
"I mean the murderer in my mind. I never actually met a murderer," I scoffed. I shrugged off my thoughts. "I would obviously be dead by now if I did because of the crappy police system there is."
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
The Devil's Princess
Genç KurguEver since her crazy rollercoaster relationship with Giovanni De Luca, Chanel Blanchett swore off brooding, cruel and callous men. Going by Lolita Nightshade now, she changed her appearance and was on the run. She wants to start over. She wasn't th...