Your Lies Aren't Loud

Prologue

Is life worthy enough to risk for a dream no one can see but you?

Would you risk your life for that one dream?

Because I will.

"Mister!" I called out while waving my hand up to catch his attention. The man with a white mustache saw me and indolently opened the gate he was about to close.

"Ticket." He reached out his hand. My smile reached from ear to ear and gave him my not-so-crumpled ticket. He stepped aside and let me pass.

"Merci beaucoup." I tapped his bulky shoulder.

I was astonished by the time I entered the train station. And in all honesty, this is my first time entering one. And my first time riding a train. Let us also include the fact that this my first time escaping.

Alone.

"Hurry up, everyone! This train must leave now."

Actually, you won't call this escaping. I'm just considering the opportunity of setting off to Paris and start my path. Escaping? Nah. The house is only a few blocks away and they probably won't mind not having me there.

Having authoritative guardians makes me want to question my future. I mean, they won't even let me dance! Dancing is my life. It's all I ever dreamt of. And I'm going to find it right here, right now in France. I won't contemplate anyone, not even my family, to stop me from fulfilling my dreams.

"Excuse me," Tawag ko sa lalaki na nakaupo sa tabi ng bintana. He's wearing black shades thus, I'm not sure if he's awake or not. Nag-angat siya ng tingin upang tignan ako.

"Is this seat reserved?" I pointed out the seat beside him with his bag placed on it. Hindi siya sumagot pero inalis niya 'yung bag doon. 

I'll take that as a no. "Thank you." Umupo ako sa tabi niya.

I can't remove the smile on my face. I can feel the achievement with the fact that I'm just a blink away. Or maybe halfway through. Almost, barely. I comforted myself with music and closed my eyes. Agad akong dinalaw ng antok kung kaya't napagpasyahan ko na umidlip. Ngunit kapikit ko ay may kumalabit sa akin.

"Excusez-moi, je pense que c'est mon siège." A blonde haired man said looking at me. I took off my earphones.

"Pardon?"

"C'est mon siège." He repeated.

"I'm sorry?" I now regret for not taking Duolingo seriously.

"This is my seat." He translated in english. "Oh!" Natauhan ako at agad na tumayo. It is a bit crowded in here.

"But..." Sinilip ko ang mga upuan. "There's no seat left." I bit my lip. 

Tinaasan ako ng kilay ng lalaki. "No! Sure, go and have your seat." Sabi ko at tumabi para makaupo siya. 

Should I stand? I am pretty sure that every seat is already occupied. Hindi man lang nag-abalang sabihin sa'kin ng katabi ko na may nakaupo na pala roon. First humiliation then.