Random Stuff I started to write but never finished

Jikook

Again I surrpress my urges of showing any hurt and let out a halfhearted chuckle, tapping his shoulder assuringly. Or not as assuring as it was intended.

,,It's fine. Just hurry,'kay?'',I say and take off down the corridor to get as fast away from him as possible.

As I walk through the kitchen I swiftly grap the keys passing by the others wishing them a good evening and making my way out of the building without turning around.

When the fresh air of Seol hits me, the tears roll down on their own command and I let them.

Why do I feel this?

I mean, he isn't mine to beginn with, so why does it feel as if he cheated on me like Hoseok- hyung did?

It's the same pain, cutting off the oxygen.

The same pain, making my limps weak.

The same pain ripping my heart into pieces.

I circle the car to get to the drivers seat as I arrive at the silver 2016 Hyundai Tucson. Roughly I start to rub at my eyes to get the tears to stop but to no avail. Fumbling with the key, I finally manage to open the door.

The key lands on the drivers seat as I bent over so I can reach under the wheel of the car. My fingers feel the surface of the bump where the electric wires should be and after a few secounds of roaming my fingers glide over a little hole where at most two fingers could fit through. I put my fingers into it and the hidden pigeonhole opens.

With shaky fingers and quiet sobs I take the little package I was searching for out of it. Opening the little carton box and pulling one cigarett and a lighter out of it I throw it onto the seat and close the door again.

I'm not a smoker, but I always loved it when Yoongi-hyung smoked. The smell of it is just so calming and familiar. And he really looks hot with a cigarett between his long fingers and smoke coming out between his lips. But I will never tell him this, we won't push his ego to far up.

With two swift motions the little stick is lit and the calming smoke goes down my throat. I put the lighter into my pocket and lean against the car with my eyes closed and my head thrown back. As I puff the white smoke out I watch it fade into the darkness of the late eve.

,,HYUNG! Hyung wait, Listen!'', a familiar voice shouts across the street and parking lot right from the entrance of the building I came from. A sight leaves my lips with the white smoke as I take another pull of the stick between my for- and middle finger.

Before the maknae arrived I managed to calm down enough to look as if I've never been upset. I dry the wet spots on my cheeks with the hem of my black T-shirt and sniff, so no sobs will leave my lips while driving the car with Jungkook as a passanger.

The boy rounds the car and stops in his tracks as he sees how I take another pull of the cigarett. His eyes go wide and his mouth opens slightly.

,,Hyung...I didn-...I didn't knew you smoke'',he says a bit bafflet. I shrug without looking at him and take the last pull before letting it fall to the floor and step it out. I let the steam out of my mouth and motion him to get into the passenger seat.

,,I'm not'', I admit as I open the door and take the lighter out of my pocket to put it back into the carton box and into the pigeonhole. I close it and get into the car at the same time the door beside me openes and the younger takes a seat on the place next to me.

The doors are closed, the seatbelts are on, the key is in the engine and the car is started. We pull off of the parking lot and onto the drive way in silence.

,,Hyu-'',before he's able to even finish this word I turn on the radio and turn the vlume up.

,,You don't have to justify yourself infront of me gguki. I'm just a little bit upset about the fact you didn't tell me you had a girlfriend'', I lie through my theeth while taking the turn onto the highway.

,,I don-'', he tries to reason and turns into my direction as I press my theeth together harshly, indicating that I'm not up to talking or discussing shit.

Luckily he shuts up at this and leans onto the window to sulk silently for himself.

I know I'm being an asshole but I just can't look at him or talk with him about this. I need to digest it first.

So the car ride resumes in silence.

~TIME SKIP BROUGHT BY JIMIN'S KILLER GAZE AND JUNGKOOKS ABILITY TO PEEL A PINEAPPLE WITH HIS HANDS (sorry for that ^^' Old but Gold)~

,,Now down the road and the big house right there'', Jungkook directs while pointing at a white big house.

I park the car behind one of the many that are on the foreyard and kill the engine.

,,Let's go''