𝑯𝑶𝑶𝑫𝑳𝑼𝑴 •EDITING•

TWENTY-FOUR

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Jamiyah Renee Smith
Raleigh,NC

"You have to stop calling me blu! if ny find out im still talking to you, matter of fact if anybody finds out im still talking to you that's my ass" I said sitting on my bed rubbing my stomach

Blu has been blowing my phone up he's been wanting to see me and touch me.

I know he still loves me because he tells me all the time, he said that when he was about to die the only thing that kept him alive was his love for me

that made me happy I told him I still loved him yesterday and he won't leave me alone

"just send me a picture baby" he said making me nod and take a picture sending it to him

"damn baby you look so fine" he said I smiled and heard the floor creak by my room door

"I have to go ill call you tonight, I love you bye" I said hanging up getting back under the covers closing my eyes

my room door opened and then closed again

I felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand up I shifted when my bed dipped

I heard a sniff and someone poke my back

"I know your up miyah" I heard ny whisper

I turned towards her my led lights were on a soft pink and I could see tears on her face

"I miss him" she whimpered and then started bawling making me start crying.

I wasn't stupid, I knew everyone blamed me for amari's death even mama

I blamed myself I knew it was my fault it ate me up inside and times like this I really wish he was here

sooner or later ny was sleep and I was right after her.

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waking up alone I went to the bathroom and peed

I washed my hands and went into the kitchen to find something to eat. I was starving

"I made waffles and bacon"ny said walking out he pantry I nodded and grabbed some sitting down and eating.

She left the kitchen and went into her room, I was once again alone.

mom was never home she worked all she could to avoid coming here.

Ny lived her life almost as usual she avoid all contact with debo and all those other girls he had her fighting she said she was getting older not younger

I aspired to be like her, she wanted to be with grown men not little boys who didn't know what they wanted in life.

I went to my messages seeing did my friends reply to my messages but they didn't

I lost almost all my friends no ones texts me anymore they ignore me

seeing that I texted them a week ago and that they didn't even respond just read it and left it alone