It was with deep regret that I was not able to witness
Your fleeting moments before your soul escaped to nothingness
I was told by my sister that you desperately counted to hundredths
Not knowing what it meant but still counted as if to reach out through the darkness
In and out of the edge of insanity
Still fighting desperately, holding on to the precipice of reality
Looking far away with a mind that can't sit idly
While spectators look at you despairingly
My father whispered to you, things you'll leave behind if you decided to
You cried as he reminded you of the child that was waiting at home for you
As if at that moment, grasping all the sanity you could muster, you've known that the other side is not the place you wanted to go to
Weeping as you yearned to go back to that child who's barely two
I wasn't there when all this happened
The night before, I turned my phone off, watched as the screen darkened
I don't want to see, I don't want to hear, I don't want to know the final judgment
Something in my heart already knows that what happens next results in my lament
I was not surprised when I got the message
I expected it, envisioned your very own passage
I wasn't sure why I thought so, I sure can't be precise
But I surely blamed your weak heart for your untimely demise
I fought with you days earlier because I don't want to tend to your aching body
Grumbling and irritated while you relentlessly called out to me
Cursing while wishing your death never thinking that that day will drag my soul till this very day
Not even till now I could certainly say, that I've let you go and in peace you finally lay
