Summer Love

Summer Love - Paris

It's been a week since the day I left the Philippines.

No, walang mga scene na pang teleserye. 

LIke, him running in the airport looking for me and asking me not to leave. 

Pagkatapos ng paguusap namin sa golf course, he ran after Bel. 

Well, that's what I expected.

What he felt, was nothing serious.

And I bet, sa mga oras na 'to, he's with Belinda and they're happy.

Siguro may mga bagay lang talaga na hindi meant para mag end up ng magkasama. 

Hindi meant para magkaroon ng happy ending.

Yeah, I liked Patrick. I liked him a lot.

Lahat ng memories ko of Christian, napalitan ng moments na kasama ko siya.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero parang this summer didn't end up the way I want it to. 

Pero ganon talaga, we weren't made for each other. 

I lived my life just like the way I used to. 

Sa ganitong paraan, hindi ako manghihinayang sa iniwan ko sa Manila.

Pero hindi ko maidedeny, na sa isang linggo ko dito sa Paris, paulit-ulit yung kanta sa isip ko sa music video namin. 

This is the first time that I keep on replaying a tagalog song. 

And I blame Tammy for this. 

Buti pa sila ni Jaeson, happy ever after. 

I bet my brother is so much happy right now. 

Check on my facebook and saw that Tammy uploaded the pictures from Balesin. 

Habang tinitignan ko yung mga pictures namin, hindi ko maiwasang ngumiti.

Naisip ko, I really had a good time with these people. 

Namiss ko tuloy bigla yung duyan sa ilalim ng puno.

Yung alon ng dagat. Yung cabana na tinuluyan namin.

At si Patrick.

And speaking of him, here I am looking at a picture od us.

We look so in love with each other.

But that is! Because that picture is taken from the day that we are shooting. That's it.

I went to Manila because of 2 things, to spend summer and because I'm looking forward to see Christian and to tell him that I'm sorry for not having a decent break up. But none of that happened.

Natakot kasi ako na baka bumalik yung feelings ko para sa kanya.

Natakot ako na hindi na ako bumalik dito sa Paris dahil ayaw niya.

I loved Christian so much, that I can give up my dreams just to be with him.

Pero nung naramdaman ko na he can't do the same thing just to be with me.

Naisip ko hindi niya deserve yung pagmamahal ko.

Na kung hindi niya kayang i give up yung pag aartista niya, then so be it.

Hindi ko rin kakayanin.

And that's how we broke up.

After a few minutes.

I went outside to wander for a while.

I missed Paris, I missed myself.

It's time to get back to what I really do and who I really am.