That look of disappointment
Edged into his face
Saying you’re a disgrace
That look of failure in his eyes
How many times do I have to try?
It seems everything I do
He takes a different view
Feeling stressed
Keeping my words suppressed
I try and try
All I ever want to do is make him proud
But I’m always stuck in a cloud
Why can’t he just understand
That I need a helping hand
Taking my things won’t make me try
Instead it makes it seem pointless
Making me feel hopeless
I try, but get discouraged
And I slowly just stop trying
And start lying,
I know that seems confusing
But in this world I am losing
I get into this mood
And no its not because of friends
Just sometimes I feel like there is no end
I feel sad for no reason
And it takes me away
I stop trying
I start feeling hopeless
Like I don’t deserve anything
I feel like I shouldn’t be here
I always have some sort of fear
And it’s so hard
Just to talk to someone
And they can’t understand
Nothing goes as planned
I keep all my emotions in
I feel like all I do is sin
I fake a smile
And it stays like that for a while
I start to slack
My mind feels black
And it gets really hard to stay intact
My heart breaks for no reason
Nothing caused it, no treason
I feel like I deserve to be punished
I feel like I should be finished
I know I should try
But it’s hard when all I do is cry
It’s hard to let my feelings out
It really makes me feel nothing but doubt
No, I really do put effort
But sometimes it gets hard
Feeling like a failure
Leaving my thoughts to be sour
Going 80 miles per hour
But I do understand why he’s frustrated
I know I make things seem complicated
I know I should try more
Instead of being done for
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Mistakenly Human (Poetry)
Poetry"Mistakenly Human" is a collection of different poems I have written on my spare time. Mind captivating and thrilling. I recommend reading the newest entries. Enjoy.