Mistakenly Human (Poetry)

Just Like You

I've been at war,

Behind closed doors.

And you wouldn't think,

I would be gone in a blink.

And I don't know who to believe,

The people who are dead,

Or the people who are free.

And it gets so tough,

When in this society,

I'll never be good enough.

It gets even tougher,

When the nights are longer,

And the days are dragged under.

I spent most nights,

Defending fights,

From the past,

That seem to last.

And my absence,

No one takes notice,

If I wasn't there,

No one cares.

Save me from my own two hands,

They are the reason I can barely stand.

I've abused so many times,

I've committed too many crimes.

And a cigarette,

Pressed to my mouth,

Smoke blowing south.

Would you kiss my lips,

Knowing a razor kissed my hips,

Or even my wrists?

And into the mirror I will stare,

My mind will only blare

The words that others spoke,

Making my words choke.

The streaks of mascara,

Spilling from my eyes,

Only emphasize,

The cries,

That escape from my mouth.

I avoid being seen,

For I don't want to make a scene.

They all believed in ghosts,

Until I walked into the wall,

And began to fall.

And with the taste of wrong,

The thing the guys will long,

They said it was a one night stand,

But the alcohol didn't let me understand.

I question why I even try,

For the people who ask If I'm fine,

I will only lie.

For when I walk these halls,

I look so tall,

With a smile plastered on my face,

As I walk with such grace,

But the ones who are smart,

Will know that's not the case.

No one bothers to ask,

Even if they did,

I would hide with in a mask.

I count myself to sleep,

Where they can not hear me weep,

I've cried myself to sleep,

With my bones that shake,

And my mind that breaks.

And you don't know what it's like,

To wake up in the middle of the night,

Wondering where everything went wrong,

Why I can't be like everyone else that is strong.

Who am I suppose to believe?

In the time of darkness,

Where one would be harmless,

I listened to the darkness as he spoke,

For he tempted me,

With a beautiful rose.

This wasn't the life I had chose.

Fast asleep,

I am awake,

In a dream,

That gleams,

As I fight to stay alive,

As I shrive,

All the wrong,

My hands have done,

You all would be so stun,

To know,

That I do not glow,

That I am just like you,

Lost in a broken blue.