Wonderful | wicked | book 2/3

Nessa

I got sent home, Dr Dillamond thought it would be good for me to spend some time working things out.
I still haven't seen Boc since I got back, once I see him I'm going back to work.
I don't want Dr Dillamond to think that I can't handle it.
I probably can't.
Elphaba has sat me of the sofa, much to my dismay, I'm still livid with her but I feel that coming home means putting aside my feelings.
I hate being sat here, I can't do anything.
I remember when I could walk, It was quite literally magical.
It sound stupid but I miss the feeling of things against my feet.

Elphaba enters the lounge, she's been acting all cheerful and smiley.
'Nessas home!'
Weird stuff like that, I hate it, she's making such a fuss.
I just want to make my peace with Boc and get back to something stable, something I can rely on.
Elphaba scampers over to me and sits beside me on the sofa.
She smiles gleefully.
I turn my head and smile weakly then turn back to face the door.
"Where's Boc?" I ask impatiently, Elphaba looks terribly guilty.
"He should be down any minute now" she says hastily "do try to relax ness"
I hate that tone, that condescending tone.
The tone that says, she knows best about what's good for me.
"I would have been fine if you didn't pull out those wretched braces in front of me" I grumble under my breath, I place my hands upon my thighs and Elphie grabs ahold of one of them before I have the chance to start pinching myself.

Time passes and I start to worry.
What if he's changed his mind?
What if I've scarred him away?
Questions race through my head, none having answers.
I squeeze Elphabas hand just to make sure that it's still there.
"Elphaba I really must get going once I've seen him" I say anxiously, "Dr Dillamond is getting me a permanent assistant and I'd really like some extra time to meet her,"
Elphaba nods and squeezes my hand back,
"Relax Ness, he's not going to take much longer," She says flatly. "Besides Fiyero is probably just having a chat with him."
I hope that's all.
"Where's Glinda?" I ask hesitantly,
There's a knock on the lounge door, a rare occurrence in this house.
"Glindas out," Elphaba mumbles before going over to the door and slipping out into the hallway.

Boc walks in uneasily, real Boc.
That same face of the kind munchkin who took me to OzDust all those years ago.
Seeing his face, his real face, makes me want to cry.
"Nessarose," he says, trembling, his face seems overjoyed, Boc rushes over to the sofa that I'm sat on and takes a seat beside me.
"Elphaba says your principal of Shiz now," he says excitedly,
I blush, it feels oddly nostalgic seeing him like this.
"Only acting, Dr Dillamond took over after Madame M and he offered me a job," I gush, I feel so hot all of a sudden I flap my hands about my face to cool myself down.
"How have you been?"
Boc leans over towards me,
"Better now I know your okay" he says sweetly "thank you again"
I smile and turn my head away.
"It's what you were owed" I say truthfully,
Bocs eyes travel down towards my legs,
"What's it like? Can you still remember the feeling?"
I shake my head sadly,
"Barley, it's like a faded memory, but I have nothing to be regretful of"
Boc twiddles his thumbs and adjusts his waistcoat.
I blink slowly,
"God I wish Elphie wouldn't put me on the sofa, I can't move about as much as I'd like," I say chuckling emptily to myself.
Boc glances over at my chair,
"Do you want me to put you in your chair?"
I shake my head frantically, the very idea of Boc putting my in my chair is just simply too embarrassing.
"No, no don't you worry about that, I'm fine where I am" I smile,
"Alright then, just let me know if you need anything," boc says politely.

We sit in silence for a short while until suddenly, there's a bright flash in front of us, it consumes the room, I squint and close my eyes.
Then it's gone and Glinda is in its place, her eyes looks frantic and tearful.
She suddenly drops to the floor and covers her face with her hands.
"Glinda!" I exclaim, Boc darts over to her and sites does beside her, he pats her on the back but she just keeps shaking her head.
Elphaba bursts in, she glances at me then her gaze turns to Glinda, she rushes over and kneels beside Boc.
Fiyero enters moments later, he looks at everyone on the floor and comes and sits becide me.
"What going on down there?" He whispers to me, I shrug my shoulders.
"Not sure, I would go over but..." I lose my focus.
Suddenly Fiyero scoops me up in his arms and carries me gently, over to the floor.
Glindas eyes widen when she sees me.
"Glinda what's wrong?" I ask, Fiyero has sat behind me keeping me upright.

Glinda stretches out her arms towards me and Fiyeros passes me over like a toy.
Glinda wraps her arms tightly around me, I do the same.
"Glinda are you okay?" I whisper.
No response.
When Fiyero passes me to Glinda I hear Elphaba lean forward if I look just out of the corner of my eye I can see her, she looks so worried.
As angry as I am with her, I hate seeing her like this.

Suddenly Glinda jerks her head and lifts me up to her face, her hands, freezing against my shoulders.
She's been crying even more, she clears her throat and wipes her eyes, Fiyero takes me back into his arms, much to the dismay of Elphaba, who hangs around me like a crow by death.
Glinda suddenly comes out with something.
"Shes gone."