🏳️🌈| Completed ✅ | 🇵🇭 Filipino|The High Five Barkada Serye (Book One) |
Jayveen Raye is the eldest to a family of four who doesn't let any distraction get in the way to her goals. Her determination and persistence earned not only the scholarsh...
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꧁TONI꧂
THE weatheris gloomy but not my mood anymore. Apparently JR took my inhibitions away after gaining back indirectly the confidence that I deserve better than going after someone who couldn't and wouldn't love me back. At least, love me back. And hell yah, Erica is not capable of that! She couldn't even give me what JR is effortlessly giving.
Although Erica could effortlessly give me the happiness I wanted, she just couldn't give me that contentment and assurance. She makes me happy with her mere presence but JR makes me calm.
Kagabi ko lang napagtanto na kahit na isang linggo pa lang kaming magkakakilala ni JR ay kaya na niyang iparamdam ang seguridad na hinahanap ko. I don't know, maybe because she makes my mind rest. Kapag kasama ko siya ay nakakalimutan ko lahat ng nanggugulo sa utak ko, pati na rin sa puso ko. Last night alone was enough proof.
If I had not met JR, I'm very sure I'm still the stupid Toni I was before. Aasa na naman ako sa isang tawag lang ni Erica. Kung walang JR na pwede kong puntahan sa oras na gusto kong sagutin ang mga tawag ni Erica ay malamang kung saan-saan na naman aabot ang isip ko na sa totoong buhay ay hanggang panaginip lamang.
Maybe Erica likes me—for my presence, for acquaintanceship and of course for little pleasures. Likeness but never love. Pity could be more possible than love.
Waking up with JR, being with her, annoying her, laughing at and with her were the cure to my chaotic mind and heart. She's my contentment nowadays. Nakakayanan kong tapusin ang isang araw dahil sa kanya na hindi nagpapakalunod sa sakit na dulot ni Erica.
I know my friends are just waiting for me to reach out to them. They have been trying to contact me too but then I guess they are not just worried about me because I sensed they were also a bit concerned and curious about JR. I'm sure L told them details about her. That is why it crossed my mind to invite JR to our so-called meeting for our upcoming party. But before that I have to finish this Troy issue first.
Part of me is having this bad feeling that it's not just friendship that is binding both of them. Kaya bago pa niya maagaw ang kaunting oras na libre ni JR ay dapat gawan ko na ng paraan upang pigilan iyon.
Hawak-hawak ang aklat na hiniram nito sa silid-aklatan ay kumaway ako sa hindi ko malilimutang mukha ng nagngangalang Troy na agad naman akong nakita.
When I was in grade school, sanay na akong nilalapitan ng mga lalaking kamag-aral o kaya naman ay mabilisang nililigiwan pero simula nang tumungtong ako ng high school ay malimit na lang mangyari iyon. Unti-unti ko kasing pinapakita sa mga tao ang totoong pagkatao ko. Kaya nang nilapitan ako ni Troy sa kantin ay alam kong hindi niya tipo ang isang kagaya ko kung hindi ang isang kagaya ni JR. He eyed her as if he's praising her. Ganoon ako kung tumingin kay Erica noon. Noon... dahil ngayon ay pilit ko nang pinipigilan ang makita siya, ni masulyapan man.
