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"Lord, I don't know what to do anymore

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"Lord, I don't know what to do anymore. I love Aaron so much but I don't want to hurt Drei. I am not worthy of his love and I know that I never will be. He's been such a good friend and I don't want to lose him. Please, Lord, save him from this and I promise that I'll do the right thing. Even if it will hurt me. Drei deserves a far more better life than the life I'm giving him. He deserves to be loved and not to be left. Let him live." Bumagsak ang mga luha ko habang nakatingin sa altar kung sa'n may rebulto ng Panginoon.

"Maybe Aaron's not the right one for me. I've loved Drei before and maybe I'll learn to love him again. Maybe Aaron's just a reminder that there are things in this world that we can't have even if our hearts yearn for it so much. I love him."

Nanginig ang mga balikat ko at tuluyan na akong napahagulgol. I hate being in crossroads. I hate having to choose because I know that I lack good judgement and I tend to make wrong decisions. But now I am forced to face one.

But can't I love and be loved at the same time?

"Lord, I'm begging you. Spare him and I promise that I'll do the right thing."Nag-sign of the cross ako at yumuko sa altar bago tuluyang umalis sa hospital chapel.

Hindi pa nagigising si Drei. Kanina ay lalong bumagal ang heartbeat niya kaya kinabahan ako.

Naglakad ako pabalik sa kuwarto niya at nakita kong nakaupo si Aaron sa labas. Nakahilig ang ulo niya sa pader habang tulala siya sa kisame. Napalingon siya  at nakita ko ang pag-aalala sa mga mata niya. Nanakit ang puso ko nang tingnan ko ang mukha niya. Nagbawi nalang ako ng tingin at nilagpasan siya.

Pipihitin ko na sana pabukas ang pinto ng kuwarto ni Drei nang maramdaman ko ang paghawak niya sa braso ko.Bigla niya akong niyakap at pinigilan ko ang sarili kong yakapin siya pabalik.

"Drei will be okay soon. He's a tough man," he mumbled encouragements.Nanghihinang napatango nalang ako bago ko siya marahang tinulak.

"Pasok lang ako. Bantayan ko siya," bulong ko.Hindi niya pa rin binibitiwan ang kamay ko. Ginawaran niya ako ng halik sa noo. "Mahal na mahal kita. Remember that."

Nakatakas ang isang luha sa mata ko at agad ko 'yong pinunasan nang hindi niya na makita pa. Muli lang akong tumango bago humiwalay at pumasok sa loob.I pulled a monoblock and dragged it beside Drei's bed. The violet color of his fingers was subsiding.

I took his hand. "Hoy Raven Andrei. Ninenerbiyos na ako. Gumising ka na riyan. The doctor said you were in bad condition but you're doing better. Please heal fast."

They said that talking to the patient even if he or she is unconscious is good. I clasped his hand tighter.

"Sorry ha. Wala na akong ibang ginawa kundi saktan ka. Alam mo, hindi ko nga deserve 'yang pagmamahal mo, e. You're too good, too nice to fall for someone as messed up as I am. Naging makasarili ako."

The machine he was connected to beeped.

"Gising ka na Drei."

Bibitiwan ko na sana ang kamay niya nang gumalaw ito. Gulat na napatingin ako sa kanya at unti-unti siyang nagmulat ng mga mata.

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