Unregretful Mistake ✓

UM: Chap 36

Good afternoon

Hinila ako papasok ni Jackson sa kwarto ko at ni-lock iyon.

I sat on the bed while he was just standing near the door.

He crossed his arms over his chest and his serious eyes darted at me.

I looked down and played with my fingers.

"Ngayon na tayo mag-usap," sabi niya at tumango lang ako.

Nanaig naman ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin. I bit the inside of my cheeks and placed a pillow on my lap.

"Did something already happened between you two?" napaangat ako ng tingin at agad na umiling.

"He's.." I swallowed hard. ".. He's a girl."

Kita ko ang pag-arko ng kanyang mga kilay.

"What?" naguguluhan niyang tanong.

I looked away and scoffed.

"He's a girl, a barbie, a gay to be exact," then I shrugged my shoulders.

Malakas siyang napabuga ng hangin.

Jackson ran a hand through his hair that cause some strands of it fell down on his forehead.

I licked my lip and looked up at the ceiling.

"Bakla 'yong taong 'yon?!" singhal niya at tumango ako.

"Kaya huwag ka ng mag-selos pa."

Nanahimik siya at napatingin sa akin. "Who told you that I'm jealous. Bakla sa straight, Lily? Magse-selos ako doon?"

Mahina akong napabuga ng hangin at nilaro na lang ang ruffles sa paligid ng unan na nasa kandungan ko.

Silence reigned between us again.

He was just staring at me while I'm not.

"How old is our son?"

"Nearing six years old," I answered in a low voice.

He gasped and held both sides of his waist.

"You hid my son against me for almost six f-cking years, Lissandra," and then he chuckled but there's no humor in it.

Jackson looked up with lips parted, trying to calm himself.

Inabala ko ang sarili ko sa unan, ayaw siyang tingnan.

"I thought you're just finding your personal space. Pero p-tangina, ang hinabaan mo naman masiyado, Lissandra. Limang taon? Talaga?"

"And the worst was.. you are pregnant when you left here in Manila?"

I tried myself to avoid crying again but I just found my tears escaped from my clouded eyes to the pillow.

I bit my lip.

"Lissandra naman, kaya nga may nangyari sa atin noon kasi akala ko handa ka na. At alam ko sa sarili ko na handa na rin ako! Pero.. Pero bakit mo naman tinago sa'kin ang anak ko? E-Edi sana naalagaan ko kayo ng mas maaga? Nakasama ng mas maaga? Lissandra....!" he shouted and I got shocked with it.

He then ruffled his hair frustratedly and turned his back against me.

"I-I'm sorry.." tangi kong na-sambit habang umiiyak na rin lalo na sa pag-sigaw niya sa akin.

Jackson turned tome again and I was surprised when his bloodshot eyes met mine.

"Wala na eh. Nangyari na, Lissandra. Ang tanong ko lang, bakit mo tinago sa akin ang anak natin? Bakit? Naging masama ba ako sa'yo para gawin mo 'yon sa'kin? Sabihin mo naman sa'kin, Lily," tumulong muli ang mga luha sa kanyang mga mata. Namasa ang kanyang mga pisngi na agad niya naman pinunasan ang humingang malalim.